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  • 31 Dec 2016
    I am writing this in the hope that it may help someone like me. I was born just after an air raid,a series of bombs. This dates me !! However,I did not know the effect on me till many years later. Growing up I did the things that lots of us do,trying on Sisters knickers and frocks.This gave me a sexual buzz,but I did not associate this with wanting to be a girl. I was one of the gang,wrestling and boy stuff was all.Iwas the ideas person,which means that I usually got the blame for everything that went wrong! Physically,I had good skin,never bothered with spots,delicately shaped,fair hair ,blue eyes,a boys or girls dream ,in retrospect. I did suffer from soreness between the legs,put down to using a racing bike saddle on my paper round,I also at 13 showed the qccasional spotting of blood,and I used to have tremendous "hissy"fits. All of this was written off by parents/doctors as nothing to worry about. If only they had ignored the bombs and looked between my legs as they should have before giving me a "sex" I was also very small,especially in the cold.This meant hiding away in the changing rooms,and some teasing if seen. i was not aware of being abused by anyone as child,and had the usual gropings of other children ,I think. Things started for me when I left home to start an apprenticeship. Part of this was sport.Iwas too small for rugby,but fast so I took up Cross County running,(although being fallen on by all those big sweaty bodies was a bit of a treat and a new thing for me!)and was good at it.A very solitary sport which took me into some remote countryside. Our standard run was along an old railway track,very overgrown.Passing a thicket I was stopped by two bigger boys who I knew,dragged in and stripped. They used me for about an hour, should say fucked me,although I do not want to be coarse,but thats what it was,Ithen made me run ,naked in front of them almost back to the school,when they allowed me to dress.The thought of my little twinkling bottom still turns me on! In the bath house after this it was explained to me that I was their property,they would look after me,and I was to be available just for them.This was the first time that I had had sex,in any way at all andI had enjoyed it ,in a terrified way,and knew that I would get a severe beating if I said anything.This would ,I knew, also ruin my career,and of course then it was illegal. They were to leave in 4 months,until then I was their virtual slave,discretly,evrery week,and there was nothing that I could do about it.I learned what they liked,they treated me as a girl and were kind and I found that I was actually in charge, and that was ,for a tiny like me a big kick.These were 18 year old men and THEY wanted me badly,so I would tease them to distraction. This activity took place in the bathroom,with me all pink and smelling of Camay,which was THE soap to have then,with one of  them keeping watch ,waiting his turn. T,he running continued,Me being forced to run naked in front of them for a mile or so.This ,I believe,did improve my running,as I dicovered that the one that caught me had me first,this was a big turn on,as one of them was really big and I enjoyed him most,but the other was a good kisser. I was quite the little flirt and knew that I was driving them wild. They did sometimes have me together,one kissing me ,the other fucking me,that drove me wild.I was also skewered from both ends ,which sounds like fun but actually takes a lot of practice to get right.A small table under the tummy helps a lot. One day,one of them producd a gymslip,school knickers,socks,blouse sandals,that he had found discarded by his sister. They made me put this on in the bathroom,and as they were both naked,I saw the incredible effects that me wearing this had on them,they were so aroused that they were holding each other,a thing that they never did .I,bitch that I was,have never been so well and truly fucked, (I do not care for the ANGLOSAXON WORDS ,BUT THIS IS THE ONLY ONE THAT WORKS)I could barely walk and really did not know or care what sex I was when I was allowed up,I felt wonderful,loved,and truly I would have done anything for them. Bear in mind that this was an ALL male society,I had no knowledge of girls whatsoever,just knew they were different and had been at a segregated school prior to this.Seeing girls in gym knickers was a real treat and now I was wearing them !!! Naturally,I now knew that I was in definatly charge,and they now made love to me on my terms,which were ,in retrospect,distinctly female,but not when I wanted it,which was not much,just when they wanted me,that ,I found could be anytime but only in the bath house .Security was a big worry!They really wanted a lookout for both of them wanted to be with me at times. They eventually found one,he just wanted to watch occasionally as payment and would change places with one of them briefly. He always wanted to play with himself and cum over my tummy,and make me rub it all over. Never really understood him. For 4 months,two/three times a week,sometimes during the night ,I would be woken,taken by the hand,to the bathroom by one of them. They had a rule that they would always use  me together,for safety.I could tell by touch who was having me,and by now,we had progressed to me being fucked on my back,with an occsional foray of me on top.This I liked as they were both bigger than me and I found that I could control them,tart that I was!! For the statiscally inclined,one was 8"uncut,the other 9",cut.I had to measure tham for a bet.I was all of 4"when really aroused. When they left ,I cried,and so did they,and times being what they were,we never met again although I did have some fairly steamy love letters. To say that I felt abused/and damaged by this would be a gross lie,I loved every minute and had it not been for the rules and society would have found other boyfriends.I had two further romances,the last about 10 years ago ,but they are other stories. I hope that this is of interest and would welcome your views,as frankly ,I have never talked to anyone about this.. To continue. I became a very good distance runner,finding out to my pleasure that the Greeks used to run naked.I wondered if they felt the terror and anticipation that I experied .I think that it improved my technique considerably. It was certainly very erotic,the thought of all those twinkling bottoms is a great turn on for me as a girl,what it did for a man ,well,I knew that too ! I wish I could do it again. Now out of school ,I forgot (almost) the girly me,still effeminate,and prissy,I was not really interested in sex,which in retrospect ,must have made a few people angry.I just did not recognise the approaches made. I was a very naive person !! Even having a rub down following a run did not arouse me in that way until one day I fell ,injuring my thigh and shoulder.This on a ploughed field in Febuary,and it hurt. I needed a physio! Our team one was a prop forward,20 stone,hairy,and 6ft 3 in, not at all a girls person ,so I thought,at least not little old me. What a suprise I had coming ! The treatment was good,but during the course of itI,and Andy discovered that I had incredibly sensitive nipples,something that my previous lovers had ignored. Then they were not very big,but now they ,my breasts had a distinct swell to them,like a  thirteen year old girls would be. They are bigger now. Anyway, I was under a small towel,Andy just in brief shorts,and he flicked at my response and tweaked me.It caused me to react,and I tried to hide it,then I noticed HIS reaction !! He was HUGE!! He said not to worry ,these things happened all the time. Then he locked the door. I stood up to go,and he came to me,took my waist and said "No" pulled me to him and gave me the best ,most passionate kiss that I had had for years.I had almost forgotten the effects they had on me. Dizzy,weak kneed,almost an orgasm,I reached up and put my arms around his neck and surrendered myself,allowing him to do as he wished. He was good,but when he moved against me ,I felt this very firm pressure on my abdomen. If any of you have felt the pressure of a man wanting you,then you will know what I mean,and also the emotion that comes with it. Raw phallic power,and I was his!! I wonder if it affects everyone like that?Its a very basic and raw emotion. I had never really compared size with my other lovers,I knew that I was small,and they always felt  huge,I shut my eyes when they used my lips,but did know that one was bigger,the one that I liked best,but this was something else!! He must have been 10inches,(he was ,I measuered it later!) Picking me up ,he laid me back on he couch,and started telling me nice things,like how he had always found me atractive,pretty,and had wanted to tell me ages ago. He said that he loved me and  wanted me to be his boyfriend. Of course ,we were both terrified ,EVERYTHING then being illegal. I said that I was very flattered and that I liked him a lot,and ,Yes,I was his. I did know about being submissive to men,and he was certainly very forcefull ,he wanted me and was going to have me. I was happy with that. He then made love to me ,very gently at first,then we both  got very carried away,my lips were bruised for days,my bottom was nicely on fire,and I had this ache,a nice one in my loins.My waist was bruised where he had hold of me. He took particular care oiling me as he had noticed my apprehension when I saw what he was going to use on me.The first time that he inserted it ,it hurt a lot,but using lots of oil ,he very slowly broke me in. I felt it and just knew that it would be okay ,after a bit,but I had had no one for about 2 years. Wonderfull ,feeling loved and owned,its an indescribable emotion, God,I WAS IN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME. Not once did it occur to me that it was wrong in any way at all. Being penetrated was uncomfortable at first,but once he was in me,there was a wonderful feeling of not being in control and of being used. I have always found kissing friends easy and have often had to restrain myself ,on meeting people the urge seems natural to me,I am so girly that it hurts sometimes to repress feelings so much,but I learned a lot about kissing in those days,but rarely with a girl.I found that they generally,were not good at it . To continue, we had a very torrid love life,I became good friends with both Andy and his sister,who knew about us,having discovered us in a clinch one rainy Saturday. To both our suprise ,she thought nothing of it ,and told us to just behave as we felt when she was around. We did and I had the occasional cuddle with her,I think she was just curious,and a flirt.She did however ask Andy if she could have me for a night. This was fine but I had to explain that I was very submissive.This was fine with her and she enjoyed it so much that it happened a few times,always with permission. This was the first girl that had me. As friends ,we went out a bit,not to parties,just pubs in those days,clubs were for the very posh and monied folk. One day Chrissie said that we had been invited to a party,one of her friends was giving it,Fancy Dress,and we WERE ALL going.She was a bit of a bully.I was to go as a Flapper,Andy as   a pirate herself as Cleopatra.I was not sure what a flapper was,but she said not to worry ,all was in hand. I soon found out,frilly knickers ,a very short frock with sequins,black fishnets,suspeders,the lot,plus make up and a wig. They both had a wonderful time dressing me,and putting my make up on. This was just a rehersal as I was then taken down town to be flaunted around.Actually,this gave me tremendous confidence as I followed Chrissies lead,watched her movements,chatted to her friends,all of whom accepted me. This was in the days  when one could be violently assualted by Homophobic,and I suspect,envious male apes.Several dress rehersals later,Chrissie declared that I was good enough to pass. The party was at big house,very formal with a very good jazz band,the evening was warm,the drinks flowing and I was on the arms of my most trusted and loved ,friends. We danced,I danced with both Chrissie (practicing the girls part) and Andy and several of his friends. I was wearing a tight pantie corslete which hid any unfortunate bulges,in fact my "bits" have always tucked away well ,as the original sockets have never closed up.Naked in the cold they all dissapear,which is very satisfactory. The dance progressed to the slower numbers and I was encouraged to dance with other boys,and I was beginning to be very aware of being held a bit tighter and being pulled into what felt like very firm members.In fact,this happened with every slow dance. I asked Chrissie if this was always the case with women too.She said yes,but most girls did not mention it,it was a secret girls kept. I said that I found it very exciting,and they both said that I should go and enjoy it to the full. Having had a drink for courage,I nipped to the bathroom to prepare myself for any eventuality,just in case,not really expecting more than a grope .Going back to my friends ,I was stopped by a gorgeous boy,dressed as Superman,which showed rather a lot of his contures. We danced,he pressing himself to my tummy, I think ,believing that I was a girl. Leading me off the floor to a dark corner ,I thought I ought to say that it was a fancy dress party and I was not that kind of girl, but he appeared not to care or hear me. We went into a summer house,where he backed me on to the wall,and holding me there,put his hands up my skirt,and removed my panties with one hand.These were tight,deliberatly,and I had struggled to get them on so I was a bit stunned. Still holding me he forced his way between my legs,grabbed the backs of my thighs and lowered me on to his already exposed member. It felt huge, (and was,)just nuzzling my bottom,and I struggled a little,just enough for dignity,then (thank goodness for preparation) with about three thrusts,he was in me ,not to the hilt but jolly near. It hurt at first like hell and I squealed,this made him push the rest in, then began a slow pounding. I hung onto his neck ,and tried to relax !!!!Pah,anyone who says lie back and think of England has never been on the end of one of them!!Icould not move,was impaled on what felt like an elephant,who show no sign of slowing down at all. I was to be crude ,being fucked senseless.  After some 15 minutes of this,he came with much thrusting and more grasping of my waist,and kissed me very firmly,me thinking "THE SWINE HAS BRUISED ME"Ungrateful slut that I was. He lifted me off the still rigid member,and lowered me to the floor,said thank you and left. It was then that I noticed Andy and Chrissie1 They had watched it all,and as I stood there ,oozing cum,looking for my knickers,told me that they had set it up,and now it was Andys turn!!!! I said no f......way in my best lady manner,but they pleaded with me,Andy had always had a yen to be second, and with their combined kissing and touch,I agreed,but it had to be gentle on my terms. I lay on the floor ,knickerless,legs apart while Andy got ready.He entered me so gently,(I was probably a bit  stretched ,no a lot)straight to the hilt and just held me saying sorry and how much he loved me. Chrissie stood over us ,keeping watch,the bonus for me was that I could see up her skirt,AND noticed that she had no knickers on too!! Unfortunatly for  fortunatly depending on your point of view she saw me looking and squatted down on my face,and I k,new that she had been fucked very, very recently,which is why she had no knickers on. The usual smell of  Facial Wipes was there but overlain with male/female sexual smells,a little like having a cold jelly fish rubbed on your face.She laughed and wiggled her bottom on me.After a very satisfactory fuck,Andy cleaned me up,Chrissie gave me her knicks to wear,we went back via the ladies,where Chrissie repaired my make up. I looked exactly how I felt ,a real slut. I should have felt bad ,but I did not. Having semen dripping down my legs,and wet knicks should have just been uncomfortable,but it was a very naughty feeling.It was not all fun trying to be a Fastiidous Giirl by any means. We stayed friends for 18 months or so,Chrissie got married,I cried at her Wedding,embarrasing everyone,except her Mother,who lent me a hankie .Andy went to Hong Kong and we lost touch for some years. My career took precedence,that sport kept my hormones in check but it was not easy. I was coerced into joining a theatre group,as a stage hand,but within a month was a high kicking chorus girl as we were very short of girls,just 4 of them. I kept very quiete about my previous experience,as I was under close scrutiny,being on stage in sexy clothes,in a place where there were few English women. I would been very much in demand,indeed,I got some very flattering reviews,and personal letters from some suprising sources. I did go out with one person ,and even weny on holiday,dressed,but I was too much in the limelight to be open. The girls in the group treated me as one of them,I socialised with their families ,probably to maintain my respectability and distance myself from the lusting hordes.After a self imposed absence from Sophie of some 20 years,apart from brief forays into knickers,but otherwise totally straight living,I met Andy again. He was now married as was I ,He wanted to meet again,so we did. The urge to kiss him was so strong that I did,suprisng myself and him,but he did respond,and we were private. We talked of the old times an he proposed that we do it again. I said that I had not dressed for years,he said that I was still his Sophie and all sorts of sweet things,and convinced me,so we set a date.I would be Sophie from the start. We arranged to meet at my cottage,abeautifull day,sunny and warm. I bathed,and perfumed myself,Chanel No5,and put my pink frilly knickers and bra on,with a basque,with suspeders. It was warm but I thought very sheer stockings would be comfy.Anyway,they would feel nice.White heels,open toed,and a floaty summer frock finished me off,plus lippy etc of course. I looked and felt GOOD! At the appointed time ,I was twitching around the garden with that butterfly tummy feeling,and saw his car coming,a very distinctive green,whhich I did not like at all. When he got out I nearly swooned,if thats the word.It was Andy of old,a little distinguised looking,a comfy looking paunch,and tanned.I threw myself at him and we kissed ,for an age.I did live in a remote place,so there was no fear of beibg seen. He picked me up,and we went indoors,carried over my own doorstep. Kissing me senseless again,I eventually disentangled myself to make tea,having been made very aware, of his pressing need for me,I wanted this to last and not to be a wham bam thing ,which I knew he,and most men,liked.I wanted to play the lady and tease him a little before submitting to him. Was this the bitch in me? So,I made tea and got biscuits,made difficult by Andy ,insisting on holding me from behind ,kissing my neck etc. I could have been had on the kitchen table but fought the urge.We went to the sitting room,where I arranged myself oposite him,just displaying enough leg,with a hint of stocking top  to maintain the errection that I could see,but pretended not to notice. We chatted about old times,Chrissie,now a doting Grandmother,who if she heard the mere mention of body fluids,would reach for bucket of water. "Superman" was now a Doctor of Divinity,and butter would not melt in his mouth We were the survivors so we were going to have to make th best of it. We talked,had biscuits,and i stood to top up the tea cups,when he seized me ,placing both hands up my skirt,and very expertly whipping my pink lacey knickers down. Holding my skirt up,Andy then took all of me in his mouth,I could feel his rouh  beard on my freshly shaven mound. He then began almost to eat me !A very intense feeling,especially as he was now holding my bottom in both hands ,pulling me to him. He had all of me in his mouth and was really giving me a good chewing. Hobbled,with my knickers ,all I could do was stand there with my hands on his shoulders,trembling before this intrusion. It made me feel a little unlady likeand I woobled on my heels After an age,he released me ,and standing up ,kissed me hard,picked me up,threw me over his shoulder,fireman style,smacked my bottom and proceded up stairs.If you have never been carried by a very strong man,try it,just for the sheer sensuousness of it.Spanking me with his free hand,he carted me up stairs to the bedroom,depositing me on the bed where I lay ,smarting a bit. This was new to me! I had never been spanked and I liked it! Undressing,I saw that he was bigger than I remembered,but probably was not,just my wishful thinking. He was as hairy as ever ,though,and still fairly well built,even though he had a tummy.This ,I did not mind,in fact found it rather attractive. He climbed on the bed,forced his knees between my legs,and holding my bottom,lifted me up into a suitable position. Again,I had prepared before hand,(this,girls ,is a must if you are to really enjoy yourselves,) and with 4 thrusts ,he was in me,not totally comfortable for me,but it got better!He was ok!! I felt and heard, his testicles bouncing on my bottom,and started to respond,it soon became a blur of sensations. He turned me over,made me kneel, fucked me then made me sit on him and bounce up and dow until he flipped me on m back and putting my feet over his shoulders,drove into me again. Despite what people say,I felt him climax in me,it was warm and with a swelling feeling inside of me.Gallons of it ,I thought. Andy rolled onto his back ,holding me in place,where I slowly disengaged,and lay in his arms and toyed with his still ,suprisingly firm and sticky ,penis. We lay like this for sometime,just gently kissing,and caressing each other, then he told me to stand and place my hands on the dressing table, I was still wearing strappy heels,suspenders and a bra,coming up behind me ,he entered me again,easily this time,and I was at the right height,lifting me up with the force of it,and very firmly grasped my waist,and comenced to fuck me again. This was a bit new as normally I gave myself on my back so I just enjoyed the new sesation,pushing back when required. There was another explosion of breath,and heavy thrusting,as he came again,I swear that I felt this again inside.After a bit ,we disengaged,and he went to the shower ,where I knelt on the floor,waiting for him.When he came out,I feeling very slutty,took him in my mouth and sucked him dry,almost choking. Following my shower,I put clean undies and a frock on and we walked around the garden ,hand in hand,in the sun Heavily ino a kiss,we failed to notice a walker,who asked for directions. Without really thinking ,I gave them,he did not bat an eyelid,but was clearly interested in what he saw.When I thought about it,I was sillouteted ,the sun behind me ,aroused,with a filmy frock on and very skimpy undies,nearly killed him ,I think!!Ihave rarely seen a persons jaw drop,I thought it was just an expression. It was very flattering for me,Andy laughed. Anyhow,reunited,we walked through the fields to a pub,not my local,and straight into our walking friend and his group.We had a very convivial evening,me being kissed by everyone when we left,and being had again ,very quickly,by Andy on the way home.Gosh,I was getting a bit bruised by now,and was rather glad that Andy could not stay the night!! Some months later,pottering about in my undies,just doing household chores,I heard a knock on the window.I looked out on to a footpath,popular with walkers,and lo and behold ,it was our walker of before,grinning in at me. He indicated that he wanted to speak and went to the door. I slipped a negligee on and opened it. He explained that his group had realised what I was,and thought it great. My God ,I thought he is going to bring them all here to blackmail me !  He then said that he was picking up his friend who was walking the other way across the moor,and could wait inside the house. It was pelting down ,so I said yes and offered coffee. He said "Is that all"leeriing at my legs.Well ,I had never indulged in casual sex,it was raining ,he did kiss me nicely,and I was feeling a bit sexy,so I said "What else would you like"He said "You" I did the offended female bit,thinking that this could be fun,and sat down, and he suddenly stripped his shorts off,exposing a truly magnificant cock,really big.I almost passed out,it certainly made me press my legs together,and I could not help gasping. He crossed to me,pushing me back on to my back,took hold of the crutch of my knickers ad pulled.They came apart ,leaving a lacey bit around my waist. They were cheap ones.,but pretty and comfy,so I was a bit miffed.Forcening my legs apart,he tried to enter me. This was rape,and not a lot I could do about it.He was about 35,14stone ,very fit ,it seemed and strong,also some 20 years my junior. Time to lie back and think of England,or enjoy it,I tthought. I said  "If you intend to fuck me please let me prepare myself,it will be better for both of us"and going to the kitchen,I used a handfull of best butter,inserted as far as I could. Wiping myself,I went back to find him now  totally naked! Wow!!!Rape or not ,this was going to be fun. He told me to bend me over the back of the armchair,and oh so slowly inserted the monster.After an age ,and feeling really streched ,I felt his balls touch my bottom,and he grasped my hips to begin the fucking of a life time,like nothing I had felt before. I just slumped  pushing my bottom up ,let him have his way.He only lasted about 10 minutes before reaching a gasping climax,driving hinself deep as he came,and hurting me .Climbing off me ,he said thank you and sorry,but he had planned this for sometime and could his friend have me as well. Suddenlly,I was back in control. Idly,reaching for him ,I asked"Why"and he stumbled through all sorts of reasons,a bit embarrassed.He was also getting hard with my manipulation,very near to coming ,so I stopped. He begged me to carry on. TRAPPED.you male fool !! You belong to ME. When his friend came,thats how he found us,and I made him ask if he could "please ,PLEASE,Sophie,let me fuck you,because my  friend has,"I had not stopped teasing his friend who still had not come ,due to a cunning finger nail stopping him. I told him to undress slowly for me which he did,go and wash himself,and report back. He was as big as his friend,but long and thin,like a snake,thobbing  with lust.I think Indian,certainly an all over lovely tan,but did not care very much,I was cock mad,and trying to be casual about it. I then lay back and allowed him into me,his friend watching ,while I played with him still. He did all the work,me just saying faster/slower etc worked well,I had always been submissive till now.  They were both covered with sweat. When he came ,I did also and I allowed his friend to as well,collecting it all in my hand and rubbed it all on my tummy. Now I understood why my childhood watcher did it. Warm ,fresh cum sticky to the touch is very sensual when handled.I felt great,the great Whore. Staying half naked ,dripping cum I made them tea and sandwiches,and,as a  special treat for me I sucked them both off standing together. Another first fo me,and I think them.They had never both had their cocks together before and comented on the feel. I said that I had never had two cocks together before so I showed them what I wanted by sitting on one and guiding the other in on top.That was fun in itself ,handling two rampant youths They went at me like dogs, coming both in fairly quick time ,which I put down to me ,showering my thighs with cum .which I made them wipe off this time  .They then departed,showering me with thanks and kisses,promising,jokily.to really rape me next time! Who fucked who,I thought! Well they did return but thats for another day. A happy ending to something that could have turned very nasty.I like to think that they learned from            
    90 Posted by Sophie Seams
  • I am writing this in the hope that it may help someone like me. I was born just after an air raid,a series of bombs. This dates me !! However,I did not know the effect on me till many years later. Growing up I did the things that lots of us do,trying on Sisters knickers and frocks.This gave me a sexual buzz,but I did not associate this with wanting to be a girl. I was one of the gang,wrestling and boy stuff was all.Iwas the ideas person,which means that I usually got the blame for everything that went wrong! Physically,I had good skin,never bothered with spots,delicately shaped,fair hair ,blue eyes,a boys or girls dream ,in retrospect. I did suffer from soreness between the legs,put down to using a racing bike saddle on my paper round,I also at 13 showed the qccasional spotting of blood,and I used to have tremendous "hissy"fits. All of this was written off by parents/doctors as nothing to worry about. If only they had ignored the bombs and looked between my legs as they should have before giving me a "sex" I was also very small,especially in the cold.This meant hiding away in the changing rooms,and some teasing if seen. i was not aware of being abused by anyone as child,and had the usual gropings of other children ,I think. Things started for me when I left home to start an apprenticeship. Part of this was sport.Iwas too small for rugby,but fast so I took up Cross County running,(although being fallen on by all those big sweaty bodies was a bit of a treat and a new thing for me!)and was good at it.A very solitary sport which took me into some remote countryside. Our standard run was along an old railway track,very overgrown.Passing a thicket I was stopped by two bigger boys who I knew,dragged in and stripped. They used me for about an hour, should say fucked me,although I do not want to be coarse,but thats what it was,Ithen made me run ,naked in front of them almost back to the school,when they allowed me to dress.The thought of my little twinkling bottom still turns me on! In the bath house after this it was explained to me that I was their property,they would look after me,and I was to be available just for them.This was the first time that I had had sex,in any way at all andI had enjoyed it ,in a terrified way,and knew that I would get a severe beating if I said anything.This would ,I knew, also ruin my career,and of course then it was illegal. They were to leave in 4 months,until then I was their virtual slave,discretly,evrery week,and there was nothing that I could do about it.I learned what they liked,they treated me as a girl and were kind and I found that I was actually in charge, and that was ,for a tiny like me a big kick.These were 18 year old men and THEY wanted me badly,so I would tease them to distraction. This activity took place in the bathroom,with me all pink and smelling of Camay,which was THE soap to have then,with one of  them keeping watch ,waiting his turn. T,he running continued,Me being forced to run naked in front of them for a mile or so.This ,I believe,did improve my running,as I dicovered that the one that caught me had me first,this was a big turn on,as one of them was really big and I enjoyed him most,but the other was a good kisser. I was quite the little flirt and knew that I was driving them wild. They did sometimes have me together,one kissing me ,the other fucking me,that drove me wild.I was also skewered from both ends ,which sounds like fun but actually takes a lot of practice to get right.A small table under the tummy helps a lot. One day,one of them producd a gymslip,school knickers,socks,blouse sandals,that he had found discarded by his sister. They made me put this on in the bathroom,and as they were both naked,I saw the incredible effects that me wearing this had on them,they were so aroused that they were holding each other,a thing that they never did .I,bitch that I was,have never been so well and truly fucked, (I do not care for the ANGLOSAXON WORDS ,BUT THIS IS THE ONLY ONE THAT WORKS)I could barely walk and really did not know or care what sex I was when I was allowed up,I felt wonderful,loved,and truly I would have done anything for them. Bear in mind that this was an ALL male society,I had no knowledge of girls whatsoever,just knew they were different and had been at a segregated school prior to this.Seeing girls in gym knickers was a real treat and now I was wearing them !!! Naturally,I now knew that I was in definatly charge,and they now made love to me on my terms,which were ,in retrospect,distinctly female,but not when I wanted it,which was not much,just when they wanted me,that ,I found could be anytime but only in the bath house .Security was a big worry!They really wanted a lookout for both of them wanted to be with me at times. They eventually found one,he just wanted to watch occasionally as payment and would change places with one of them briefly. He always wanted to play with himself and cum over my tummy,and make me rub it all over. Never really understood him. For 4 months,two/three times a week,sometimes during the night ,I would be woken,taken by the hand,to the bathroom by one of them. They had a rule that they would always use  me together,for safety.I could tell by touch who was having me,and by now,we had progressed to me being fucked on my back,with an occsional foray of me on top.This I liked as they were both bigger than me and I found that I could control them,tart that I was!! For the statiscally inclined,one was 8"uncut,the other 9",cut.I had to measure tham for a bet.I was all of 4"when really aroused. When they left ,I cried,and so did they,and times being what they were,we never met again although I did have some fairly steamy love letters. To say that I felt abused/and damaged by this would be a gross lie,I loved every minute and had it not been for the rules and society would have found other boyfriends.I had two further romances,the last about 10 years ago ,but they are other stories. I hope that this is of interest and would welcome your views,as frankly ,I have never talked to anyone about this.. To continue. I became a very good distance runner,finding out to my pleasure that the Greeks used to run naked.I wondered if they felt the terror and anticipation that I experied .I think that it improved my technique considerably. It was certainly very erotic,the thought of all those twinkling bottoms is a great turn on for me as a girl,what it did for a man ,well,I knew that too ! I wish I could do it again. Now out of school ,I forgot (almost) the girly me,still effeminate,and prissy,I was not really interested in sex,which in retrospect ,must have made a few people angry.I just did not recognise the approaches made. I was a very naive person !! Even having a rub down following a run did not arouse me in that way until one day I fell ,injuring my thigh and shoulder.This on a ploughed field in Febuary,and it hurt. I needed a physio! Our team one was a prop forward,20 stone,hairy,and 6ft 3 in, not at all a girls person ,so I thought,at least not little old me. What a suprise I had coming ! The treatment was good,but during the course of itI,and Andy discovered that I had incredibly sensitive nipples,something that my previous lovers had ignored. Then they were not very big,but now they ,my breasts had a distinct swell to them,like a  thirteen year old girls would be. They are bigger now. Anyway, I was under a small towel,Andy just in brief shorts,and he flicked at my response and tweaked me.It caused me to react,and I tried to hide it,then I noticed HIS reaction !! He was HUGE!! He said not to worry ,these things happened all the time. Then he locked the door. I stood up to go,and he came to me,took my waist and said "No" pulled me to him and gave me the best ,most passionate kiss that I had had for years.I had almost forgotten the effects they had on me. Dizzy,weak kneed,almost an orgasm,I reached up and put my arms around his neck and surrendered myself,allowing him to do as he wished. He was good,but when he moved against me ,I felt this very firm pressure on my abdomen. If any of you have felt the pressure of a man wanting you,then you will know what I mean,and also the emotion that comes with it. Raw phallic power,and I was his!! I wonder if it affects everyone like that?Its a very basic and raw emotion. I had never really compared size with my other lovers,I knew that I was small,and they always felt  huge,I shut my eyes when they used my lips,but did know that one was bigger,the one that I liked best,but this was something else!! He must have been 10inches,(he was ,I measuered it later!) Picking me up ,he laid me back on he couch,and started telling me nice things,like how he had always found me atractive,pretty,and had wanted to tell me ages ago. He said that he loved me and  wanted me to be his boyfriend. Of course ,we were both terrified ,EVERYTHING then being illegal. I said that I was very flattered and that I liked him a lot,and ,Yes,I was his. I did know about being submissive to men,and he was certainly very forcefull ,he wanted me and was going to have me. I was happy with that. He then made love to me ,very gently at first,then we both  got very carried away,my lips were bruised for days,my bottom was nicely on fire,and I had this ache,a nice one in my loins.My waist was bruised where he had hold of me. He took particular care oiling me as he had noticed my apprehension when I saw what he was going to use on me.The first time that he inserted it ,it hurt a lot,but using lots of oil ,he very slowly broke me in. I felt it and just knew that it would be okay ,after a bit,but I had had no one for about 2 years. Wonderfull ,feeling loved and owned,its an indescribable emotion, God,I WAS IN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME. Not once did it occur to me that it was wrong in any way at all. Being penetrated was uncomfortable at first,but once he was in me,there was a wonderful feeling of not being in control and of being used. I have always found kissing friends easy and have often had to restrain myself ,on meeting people the urge seems natural to me,I am so girly that it hurts sometimes to repress feelings so much,but I learned a lot about kissing in those days,but rarely with a girl.I found that they generally,were not good at it . To continue, we had a very torrid love life,I became good friends with both Andy and his sister,who knew about us,having discovered us in a clinch one rainy Saturday. To both our suprise ,she thought nothing of it ,and told us to just behave as we felt when she was around. We did and I had the occasional cuddle with her,I think she was just curious,and a flirt.She did however ask Andy if she could have me for a night. This was fine but I had to explain that I was very submissive.This was fine with her and she enjoyed it so much that it happened a few times,always with permission. This was the first girl that had me. As friends ,we went out a bit,not to parties,just pubs in those days,clubs were for the very posh and monied folk. One day Chrissie said that we had been invited to a party,one of her friends was giving it,Fancy Dress,and we WERE ALL going.She was a bit of a bully.I was to go as a Flapper,Andy as   a pirate herself as Cleopatra.I was not sure what a flapper was,but she said not to worry ,all was in hand. I soon found out,frilly knickers ,a very short frock with sequins,black fishnets,suspeders,the lot,plus make up and a wig. They both had a wonderful time dressing me,and putting my make up on. This was just a rehersal as I was then taken down town to be flaunted around.Actually,this gave me tremendous confidence as I followed Chrissies lead,watched her movements,chatted to her friends,all of whom accepted me. This was in the days  when one could be violently assualted by Homophobic,and I suspect,envious male apes.Several dress rehersals later,Chrissie declared that I was good enough to pass. The party was at big house,very formal with a very good jazz band,the evening was warm,the drinks flowing and I was on the arms of my most trusted and loved ,friends. We danced,I danced with both Chrissie (practicing the girls part) and Andy and several of his friends. I was wearing a tight pantie corslete which hid any unfortunate bulges,in fact my "bits" have always tucked away well ,as the original sockets have never closed up.Naked in the cold they all dissapear,which is very satisfactory. The dance progressed to the slower numbers and I was encouraged to dance with other boys,and I was beginning to be very aware of being held a bit tighter and being pulled into what felt like very firm members.In fact,this happened with every slow dance. I asked Chrissie if this was always the case with women too.She said yes,but most girls did not mention it,it was a secret girls kept. I said that I found it very exciting,and they both said that I should go and enjoy it to the full. Having had a drink for courage,I nipped to the bathroom to prepare myself for any eventuality,just in case,not really expecting more than a grope .Going back to my friends ,I was stopped by a gorgeous boy,dressed as Superman,which showed rather a lot of his contures. We danced,he pressing himself to my tummy, I think ,believing that I was a girl. Leading me off the floor to a dark corner ,I thought I ought to say that it was a fancy dress party and I was not that kind of girl, but he appeared not to care or hear me. We went into a summer house,where he backed me on to the wall,and holding me there,put his hands up my skirt,and removed my panties with one hand.These were tight,deliberatly,and I had struggled to get them on so I was a bit stunned. Still holding me he forced his way between my legs,grabbed the backs of my thighs and lowered me on to his already exposed member. It felt huge, (and was,)just nuzzling my bottom,and I struggled a little,just enough for dignity,then (thank goodness for preparation) with about three thrusts,he was in me ,not to the hilt but jolly near. It hurt at first like hell and I squealed,this made him push the rest in, then began a slow pounding. I hung onto his neck ,and tried to relax !!!!Pah,anyone who says lie back and think of England has never been on the end of one of them!!Icould not move,was impaled on what felt like an elephant,who show no sign of slowing down at all. I was to be crude ,being fucked senseless.  After some 15 minutes of this,he came with much thrusting and more grasping of my waist,and kissed me very firmly,me thinking "THE SWINE HAS BRUISED ME"Ungrateful slut that I was. He lifted me off the still rigid member,and lowered me to the floor,said thank you and left. It was then that I noticed Andy and Chrissie1 They had watched it all,and as I stood there ,oozing cum,looking for my knickers,told me that they had set it up,and now it was Andys turn!!!! I said no f......way in my best lady manner,but they pleaded with me,Andy had always had a yen to be second, and with their combined kissing and touch,I agreed,but it had to be gentle on my terms. I lay on the floor ,knickerless,legs apart while Andy got ready.He entered me so gently,(I was probably a bit  stretched ,no a lot)straight to the hilt and just held me saying sorry and how much he loved me. Chrissie stood over us ,keeping watch,the bonus for me was that I could see up her skirt,AND noticed that she had no knickers on too!! Unfortunatly for  fortunatly depending on your point of view she saw me looking and squatted down on my face,and I k,new that she had been fucked very, very recently,which is why she had no knickers on. The usual smell of  Facial Wipes was there but overlain with male/female sexual smells,a little like having a cold jelly fish rubbed on your face.She laughed and wiggled her bottom on me.After a very satisfactory fuck,Andy cleaned me up,Chrissie gave me her knicks to wear,we went back via the ladies,where Chrissie repaired my make up. I looked exactly how I felt ,a real slut. I should have felt bad ,but I did not. Having semen dripping down my legs,and wet knicks should have just been uncomfortable,but it was a very naughty feeling.It was not all fun trying to be a Fastiidous Giirl by any means. We stayed friends for 18 months or so,Chrissie got married,I cried at her Wedding,embarrasing everyone,except her Mother,who lent me a hankie .Andy went to Hong Kong and we lost touch for some years. My career took precedence,that sport kept my hormones in check but it was not easy. I was coerced into joining a theatre group,as a stage hand,but within a month was a high kicking chorus girl as we were very short of girls,just 4 of them. I kept very quiete about my previous experience,as I was under close scrutiny,being on stage in sexy clothes,in a place where there were few English women. I would been very much in demand,indeed,I got some very flattering reviews,and personal letters from some suprising sources. I did go out with one person ,and even weny on holiday,dressed,but I was too much in the limelight to be open. The girls in the group treated me as one of them,I socialised with their families ,probably to maintain my respectability and distance myself from the lusting hordes.After a self imposed absence from Sophie of some 20 years,apart from brief forays into knickers,but otherwise totally straight living,I met Andy again. He was now married as was I ,He wanted to meet again,so we did. The urge to kiss him was so strong that I did,suprisng myself and him,but he did respond,and we were private. We talked of the old times an he proposed that we do it again. I said that I had not dressed for years,he said that I was still his Sophie and all sorts of sweet things,and convinced me,so we set a date.I would be Sophie from the start. We arranged to meet at my cottage,abeautifull day,sunny and warm. I bathed,and perfumed myself,Chanel No5,and put my pink frilly knickers and bra on,with a basque,with suspeders. It was warm but I thought very sheer stockings would be comfy.Anyway,they would feel nice.White heels,open toed,and a floaty summer frock finished me off,plus lippy etc of course. I looked and felt GOOD! At the appointed time ,I was twitching around the garden with that butterfly tummy feeling,and saw his car coming,a very distinctive green,whhich I did not like at all. When he got out I nearly swooned,if thats the word.It was Andy of old,a little distinguised looking,a comfy looking paunch,and tanned.I threw myself at him and we kissed ,for an age.I did live in a remote place,so there was no fear of beibg seen. He picked me up,and we went indoors,carried over my own doorstep. Kissing me senseless again,I eventually disentangled myself to make tea,having been made very aware, of his pressing need for me,I wanted this to last and not to be a wham bam thing ,which I knew he,and most men,liked.I wanted to play the lady and tease him a little before submitting to him. Was this the bitch in me? So,I made tea and got biscuits,made difficult by Andy ,insisting on holding me from behind ,kissing my neck etc. I could have been had on the kitchen table but fought the urge.We went to the sitting room,where I arranged myself oposite him,just displaying enough leg,with a hint of stocking top  to maintain the errection that I could see,but pretended not to notice. We chatted about old times,Chrissie,now a doting Grandmother,who if she heard the mere mention of body fluids,would reach for bucket of water. "Superman" was now a Doctor of Divinity,and butter would not melt in his mouth We were the survivors so we were going to have to make th best of it. We talked,had biscuits,and i stood to top up the tea cups,when he seized me ,placing both hands up my skirt,and very expertly whipping my pink lacey knickers down. Holding my skirt up,Andy then took all of me in his mouth,I could feel his rouh  beard on my freshly shaven mound. He then began almost to eat me !A very intense feeling,especially as he was now holding my bottom in both hands ,pulling me to him. He had all of me in his mouth and was really giving me a good chewing. Hobbled,with my knickers ,all I could do was stand there with my hands on his shoulders,trembling before this intrusion. It made me feel a little unlady likeand I woobled on my heels After an age,he released me ,and standing up ,kissed me hard,picked me up,threw me over his shoulder,fireman style,smacked my bottom and proceded up stairs.If you have never been carried by a very strong man,try it,just for the sheer sensuousness of it.Spanking me with his free hand,he carted me up stairs to the bedroom,depositing me on the bed where I lay ,smarting a bit. This was new to me! I had never been spanked and I liked it! Undressing,I saw that he was bigger than I remembered,but probably was not,just my wishful thinking. He was as hairy as ever ,though,and still fairly well built,even though he had a tummy.This ,I did not mind,in fact found it rather attractive. He climbed on the bed,forced his knees between my legs,and holding my bottom,lifted me up into a suitable position. Again,I had prepared before hand,(this,girls ,is a must if you are to really enjoy yourselves,) and with 4 thrusts ,he was in me,not totally comfortable for me,but it got better!He was ok!! I felt and heard, his testicles bouncing on my bottom,and started to respond,it soon became a blur of sensations. He turned me over,made me kneel, fucked me then made me sit on him and bounce up and dow until he flipped me on m back and putting my feet over his shoulders,drove into me again. Despite what people say,I felt him climax in me,it was warm and with a swelling feeling inside of me.Gallons of it ,I thought. Andy rolled onto his back ,holding me in place,where I slowly disengaged,and lay in his arms and toyed with his still ,suprisingly firm and sticky ,penis. We lay like this for sometime,just gently kissing,and caressing each other, then he told me to stand and place my hands on the dressing table, I was still wearing strappy heels,suspenders and a bra,coming up behind me ,he entered me again,easily this time,and I was at the right height,lifting me up with the force of it,and very firmly grasped my waist,and comenced to fuck me again. This was a bit new as normally I gave myself on my back so I just enjoyed the new sesation,pushing back when required. There was another explosion of breath,and heavy thrusting,as he came again,I swear that I felt this again inside.After a bit ,we disengaged,and he went to the shower ,where I knelt on the floor,waiting for him.When he came out,I feeling very slutty,took him in my mouth and sucked him dry,almost choking. Following my shower,I put clean undies and a frock on and we walked around the garden ,hand in hand,in the sun Heavily ino a kiss,we failed to notice a walker,who asked for directions. Without really thinking ,I gave them,he did not bat an eyelid,but was clearly interested in what he saw.When I thought about it,I was sillouteted ,the sun behind me ,aroused,with a filmy frock on and very skimpy undies,nearly killed him ,I think!!Ihave rarely seen a persons jaw drop,I thought it was just an expression. It was very flattering for me,Andy laughed. Anyhow,reunited,we walked through the fields to a pub,not my local,and straight into our walking friend and his group.We had a very convivial evening,me being kissed by everyone when we left,and being had again ,very quickly,by Andy on the way home.Gosh,I was getting a bit bruised by now,and was rather glad that Andy could not stay the night!! Some months later,pottering about in my undies,just doing household chores,I heard a knock on the window.I looked out on to a footpath,popular with walkers,and lo and behold ,it was our walker of before,grinning in at me. He indicated that he wanted to speak and went to the door. I slipped a negligee on and opened it. He explained that his group had realised what I was,and thought it great. My God ,I thought he is going to bring them all here to blackmail me !  He then said that he was picking up his friend who was walking the other way across the moor,and could wait inside the house. It was pelting down ,so I said yes and offered coffee. He said "Is that all"leeriing at my legs.Well ,I had never indulged in casual sex,it was raining ,he did kiss me nicely,and I was feeling a bit sexy,so I said "What else would you like"He said "You" I did the offended female bit,thinking that this could be fun,and sat down, and he suddenly stripped his shorts off,exposing a truly magnificant cock,really big.I almost passed out,it certainly made me press my legs together,and I could not help gasping. He crossed to me,pushing me back on to my back,took hold of the crutch of my knickers ad pulled.They came apart ,leaving a lacey bit around my waist. They were cheap ones.,but pretty and comfy,so I was a bit miffed.Forcening my legs apart,he tried to enter me. This was rape,and not a lot I could do about it.He was about 35,14stone ,very fit ,it seemed and strong,also some 20 years my junior. Time to lie back and think of England,or enjoy it,I tthought. I said  "If you intend to fuck me please let me prepare myself,it will be better for both of us"and going to the kitchen,I used a handfull of best butter,inserted as far as I could. Wiping myself,I went back to find him now  totally naked! Wow!!!Rape or not ,this was going to be fun. He told me to bend me over the back of the armchair,and oh so slowly inserted the monster.After an age ,and feeling really streched ,I felt his balls touch my bottom,and he grasped my hips to begin the fucking of a life time,like nothing I had felt before. I just slumped  pushing my bottom up ,let him have his way.He only lasted about 10 minutes before reaching a gasping climax,driving hinself deep as he came,and hurting me .Climbing off me ,he said thank you and sorry,but he had planned this for sometime and could his friend have me as well. Suddenlly,I was back in control. Idly,reaching for him ,I asked"Why"and he stumbled through all sorts of reasons,a bit embarrassed.He was also getting hard with my manipulation,very near to coming ,so I stopped. He begged me to carry on. TRAPPED.you male fool !! You belong to ME. When his friend came,thats how he found us,and I made him ask if he could "please ,PLEASE,Sophie,let me fuck you,because my  friend has,"I had not stopped teasing his friend who still had not come ,due to a cunning finger nail stopping him. I told him to undress slowly for me which he did,go and wash himself,and report back. He was as big as his friend,but long and thin,like a snake,thobbing  with lust.I think Indian,certainly an all over lovely tan,but did not care very much,I was cock mad,and trying to be casual about it. I then lay back and allowed him into me,his friend watching ,while I played with him still. He did all the work,me just saying faster/slower etc worked well,I had always been submissive till now.  They were both covered with sweat. When he came ,I did also and I allowed his friend to as well,collecting it all in my hand and rubbed it all on my tummy. Now I understood why my childhood watcher did it. Warm ,fresh cum sticky to the touch is very sensual when handled.I felt great,the great Whore. Staying half naked ,dripping cum I made them tea and sandwiches,and,as a  special treat for me I sucked them both off standing together. Another first fo me,and I think them.They had never both had their cocks together before and comented on the feel. I said that I had never had two cocks together before so I showed them what I wanted by sitting on one and guiding the other in on top.That was fun in itself ,handling two rampant youths They went at me like dogs, coming both in fairly quick time ,which I put down to me ,showering my thighs with cum .which I made them wipe off this time  .They then departed,showering me with thanks and kisses,promising,jokily.to really rape me next time! Who fucked who,I thought! Well they did return but thats for another day. A happy ending to something that could have turned very nasty.I like to think that they learned from            
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  • 29 Dec 2016
    With my new status as moderator, perhaps it's time to clean up my wall I thought, move anything raunchy in to new albums so as to make room for more general photos. Easy job to do, surely. Well, not so easy on a mobile. Intact, I wasn't able to move anything. Maybe this is a technical hitch. But then I thought, well why should I really? As things stand, adult pics show through on the safe feed and until this is sorted they will continue to. So, for the time being it's a case of having to accept that's if anyone reacts to any of my adult pic, that will make them show in the safe feed and will subsequently be removed. The reason I'm writing this blog is to situation of level the playing field and point out that there are no rules for other members that don't apply to moderators. We're all governed by the same set of rules and there are no exemptions. In my role as moderator I haven't come across many violations so far, just mishaps as a result of above mentioned tech problems. Further to this, when I've come across inappropriate items, comments etc. I've taken the option of messaging the members to gibe them a Chance to respond and take positive action themselves. Unfortunately this approach has been less than successful, with just one member responding. Then I find other moderators have done what I should have done in the first place. From now on I'll be operating differently, as the softly softly approach has not worked. So, it will be a case of just getting on with the job. The site I'd looking much more approachable lately and that's good. Thanks to all who have stuck by and a huge welcome to the many new members. Onwards and upwards for 2017.   Best regards       Julia
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  • With my new status as moderator, perhaps it's time to clean up my wall I thought, move anything raunchy in to new albums so as to make room for more general photos. Easy job to do, surely. Well, not so easy on a mobile. Intact, I wasn't able to move anything. Maybe this is a technical hitch. But then I thought, well why should I really? As things stand, adult pics show through on the safe feed and until this is sorted they will continue to. So, for the time being it's a case of having to accept that's if anyone reacts to any of my adult pic, that will make them show in the safe feed and will subsequently be removed. The reason I'm writing this blog is to situation of level the playing field and point out that there are no rules for other members that don't apply to moderators. We're all governed by the same set of rules and there are no exemptions. In my role as moderator I haven't come across many violations so far, just mishaps as a result of above mentioned tech problems. Further to this, when I've come across inappropriate items, comments etc. I've taken the option of messaging the members to gibe them a Chance to respond and take positive action themselves. Unfortunately this approach has been less than successful, with just one member responding. Then I find other moderators have done what I should have done in the first place. From now on I'll be operating differently, as the softly softly approach has not worked. So, it will be a case of just getting on with the job. The site I'd looking much more approachable lately and that's good. Thanks to all who have stuck by and a huge welcome to the many new members. Onwards and upwards for 2017.   Best regards       Julia
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  • 22 Dec 2016
    Well what a year 2016 was for me. From being only able to show my stocking clad legs to full facial pics and then taking myself out in to the real world. It has been quite a road of discovery going from fear and worry about showing myself to feeling comfortable in myself to reveal who I am and hopefully dressing appropriately for a woman.   I have more knowledge about who I am. I am sure I do not want to go down the surgery route as I am happy with my body (and my plumbing) and I am also aware of the risks that any medical procedure takes. I would though like to have a more feminine body shape and hair. I am sure that being me is not just a sexual thing and I enjoy transforming myself in to a woman rather than the excitement or gratification of wearing female clothes. I find that as me I feel at peace and relaxed and just happier. I felt in 2016 for the first time in years that I am attractive, and positive about life rather than it being different shades of grey and drudgery.   The hard reality of my life is that I must be the husband and father figure first and because of where I live and work the ability to become full time or even part time, for now, seems to be an impossible dream. It will just be evening dressed and the occasion morning or night out, hopefully though I can extend this and actually feel confident to interact socially and be out.   What I am grateful for is the support from my friends on here that have made things so positive and have encouraged and supported me. Even with the various issues with the change of ownership this site has been a great resource and outlet for me. Without you lot (some close to home some very far away) 2016 would not have been possible and I would like to thank you and wish you the best for the holidays and 2017.
    125 Posted by Sara Calypso
  • Well what a year 2016 was for me. From being only able to show my stocking clad legs to full facial pics and then taking myself out in to the real world. It has been quite a road of discovery going from fear and worry about showing myself to feeling comfortable in myself to reveal who I am and hopefully dressing appropriately for a woman.   I have more knowledge about who I am. I am sure I do not want to go down the surgery route as I am happy with my body (and my plumbing) and I am also aware of the risks that any medical procedure takes. I would though like to have a more feminine body shape and hair. I am sure that being me is not just a sexual thing and I enjoy transforming myself in to a woman rather than the excitement or gratification of wearing female clothes. I find that as me I feel at peace and relaxed and just happier. I felt in 2016 for the first time in years that I am attractive, and positive about life rather than it being different shades of grey and drudgery.   The hard reality of my life is that I must be the husband and father figure first and because of where I live and work the ability to become full time or even part time, for now, seems to be an impossible dream. It will just be evening dressed and the occasion morning or night out, hopefully though I can extend this and actually feel confident to interact socially and be out.   What I am grateful for is the support from my friends on here that have made things so positive and have encouraged and supported me. Even with the various issues with the change of ownership this site has been a great resource and outlet for me. Without you lot (some close to home some very far away) 2016 would not have been possible and I would like to thank you and wish you the best for the holidays and 2017.
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  • 20 Dec 2016
    Greetings one and all,   Hello to all the new members that have just joined as well as any future members reading this blog, and a warm greetings to all the members of old that have hung in there to stick with us through the good and bad times, it really is very much appreciated.   As you know Katie and Pauline have asked some of us to be moderators, some are newish to the job and others like myself have had plenty of experience doing moderator and admin work.   Since I check the site daily sometimes multiple times a day or more smiles, most likely it be me that comes across things so I thought I would give you all some insight into the way I roll as a Moderator.   At the moment of writing this blog, work is still being done behind the scenes to fix many of the past problems with the website/forum, but once work is completed a lot of the following will be done well before it even gets chance to reach the safe feed.   The main problem thats in process of being figured out and fixed is, even when pictures are uploaded and set to adult, if other users like/react to them or comment on them or share them, it shows up in the safe feed, which is something as a moderator I will remove.   Please note though, just because it gets removed from the safe feed, it does not remove the interactions by other users, so any comments left will still remain, same as likes and reactions.   The following are the kind of things if I see them pop up on a "SAFE" feed I will delete.   Pictures: (No Warnings unless constant violation of rules)   Bottoms with a thong up crack or no thong at all. Breasts fully showing, or with tiny bra's basically still showing all. Any kind of bulges, don't care if it a bikini or anything else, a bulge is a bulge. Cock pics of any kind even cartoon/drawings/3D animation (I know how rules get bent) Topless guys, come on guys, you have nipples too just like us girls.   Language: (The following will not be tolerated ever)   Insults Flaming Derogatary remarks Sexual stuff like calling people whores, sluts, cum buckets, etc etc, you get my drift.   Summary:   If I catch people violating the language rules especially the insults part and calling people whores and degrading them more than once you will get a warning, then i will soft ban, then hard ban if members constantly violate those rules.   I know I might sound like a hardliner on this but I want all members, guys and girls to feel safe and secure and able to express themselves openly without the negativity most other sites let happen.   This goes for private messages too if they are unwanted or not asked for in advance.   If someone sends you a private message and it makes you feel uneasy, do not suffer in silence or feel like you have no choice but to accept it, here is how to bring it to my attention to get dealt with swiftly.   Windows users: Load up your message on screen: Either take a snapshot with your smartphone, or, press the printscreen button on keyboard. Go to start menu load up paint or any other paint program you may have, Create a new image if it asks you size go for a big one, A5 or A4, etc Then go to edit menu up top paste image from clipboard Make sure all the text is showing in the screen. Then save file.   Linux Users: Simply press the print screen button and it gives you option to save the screenshot as an image file.   Mac users: Sorry no idea don't have a mac to try it on.   You can then email it as an attachment to my email address:   lesleyrebeccac@yahoo.com   Include your username on here, what the problem is, go into as much detail as possible.   And I will investigate and if any warnings/bans need to be done i will do so and inform the rest of the modertator/admin team of the situation.   This goes for other Moderators too, I treat everyone equally, no favouritism.   So come on guys and girls, get those clothes on and start getting creative with your looks, noticed some brilliant ones lately.   REMEMBER: THIS IS ONLY FOR THE SAFE FEEDS, NOT ADULT ONES:   Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this blog, and please share it so it gets around to everyone. Merry Christmas & a very very very happy new year.   Lesley xxxxx Transtastic Moderator
    44 Posted by Lesley Carrington
  • Greetings one and all,   Hello to all the new members that have just joined as well as any future members reading this blog, and a warm greetings to all the members of old that have hung in there to stick with us through the good and bad times, it really is very much appreciated.   As you know Katie and Pauline have asked some of us to be moderators, some are newish to the job and others like myself have had plenty of experience doing moderator and admin work.   Since I check the site daily sometimes multiple times a day or more smiles, most likely it be me that comes across things so I thought I would give you all some insight into the way I roll as a Moderator.   At the moment of writing this blog, work is still being done behind the scenes to fix many of the past problems with the website/forum, but once work is completed a lot of the following will be done well before it even gets chance to reach the safe feed.   The main problem thats in process of being figured out and fixed is, even when pictures are uploaded and set to adult, if other users like/react to them or comment on them or share them, it shows up in the safe feed, which is something as a moderator I will remove.   Please note though, just because it gets removed from the safe feed, it does not remove the interactions by other users, so any comments left will still remain, same as likes and reactions.   The following are the kind of things if I see them pop up on a "SAFE" feed I will delete.   Pictures: (No Warnings unless constant violation of rules)   Bottoms with a thong up crack or no thong at all. Breasts fully showing, or with tiny bra's basically still showing all. Any kind of bulges, don't care if it a bikini or anything else, a bulge is a bulge. Cock pics of any kind even cartoon/drawings/3D animation (I know how rules get bent) Topless guys, come on guys, you have nipples too just like us girls.   Language: (The following will not be tolerated ever)   Insults Flaming Derogatary remarks Sexual stuff like calling people whores, sluts, cum buckets, etc etc, you get my drift.   Summary:   If I catch people violating the language rules especially the insults part and calling people whores and degrading them more than once you will get a warning, then i will soft ban, then hard ban if members constantly violate those rules.   I know I might sound like a hardliner on this but I want all members, guys and girls to feel safe and secure and able to express themselves openly without the negativity most other sites let happen.   This goes for private messages too if they are unwanted or not asked for in advance.   If someone sends you a private message and it makes you feel uneasy, do not suffer in silence or feel like you have no choice but to accept it, here is how to bring it to my attention to get dealt with swiftly.   Windows users: Load up your message on screen: Either take a snapshot with your smartphone, or, press the printscreen button on keyboard. Go to start menu load up paint or any other paint program you may have, Create a new image if it asks you size go for a big one, A5 or A4, etc Then go to edit menu up top paste image from clipboard Make sure all the text is showing in the screen. Then save file.   Linux Users: Simply press the print screen button and it gives you option to save the screenshot as an image file.   Mac users: Sorry no idea don't have a mac to try it on.   You can then email it as an attachment to my email address:   lesleyrebeccac@yahoo.com   Include your username on here, what the problem is, go into as much detail as possible.   And I will investigate and if any warnings/bans need to be done i will do so and inform the rest of the modertator/admin team of the situation.   This goes for other Moderators too, I treat everyone equally, no favouritism.   So come on guys and girls, get those clothes on and start getting creative with your looks, noticed some brilliant ones lately.   REMEMBER: THIS IS ONLY FOR THE SAFE FEEDS, NOT ADULT ONES:   Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this blog, and please share it so it gets around to everyone. Merry Christmas & a very very very happy new year.   Lesley xxxxx Transtastic Moderator
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  • 04 Dec 2016
    To All You Wonderful Transtastic Members   Some of you may have noticed that the Transtastic membership numbers appear to be dropping, rather than increasing.    Why?   Is this yet another way of testing your patience?   We now have a new Transtastic moderating team and Lesley suggested that we cull all members who have not been active for the last 6 months. They can come back and re-activate their profile if they want to, but if they are not active then they do NOT appear as a valid member any more.    When this process is complete we will end up with an up to date list of current members, who are actually active. So for anyone wanting to make new friends or extend their network the members list will only be those memebers who are active. We will continue to delete members on an ongoing basis so that Transtastic remains up to date.   Future changes will include   1. Moderator approval and rating of all photos, which also means zero tolerance of cock pix as profile photos. At the moment this is policed retroactively but that will change.   2. A firewall between the safe and adult parts of the site...so that those members who don't want to look at genitals dont have to, and those who do can. Just no profile photos of cocks or panty bulge.   3. Making the chat room workable   4. Energising the forums and blogs and other add ons here   Our goal is to make this a site where it's actually fun to be a member, and that you can feel safe to be here. It will take more time and patience from all of you. But we are working on making Trasntastic better and it will happen. Anyone who thinks they can help us in any way then please contact any one of us.   hugs   Your Transtastic Moderating Team xxx   (Christine Taylor, Julia Dream, Katie Glover, Lesley Carrington, Pauline Smith, Rachel Maxwell.)    PS Much as we would love to have the figures of those ladies in the pic ....we don't, but we all try to look our best    
    123 Posted by Pauline Smith
  • To All You Wonderful Transtastic Members   Some of you may have noticed that the Transtastic membership numbers appear to be dropping, rather than increasing.    Why?   Is this yet another way of testing your patience?   We now have a new Transtastic moderating team and Lesley suggested that we cull all members who have not been active for the last 6 months. They can come back and re-activate their profile if they want to, but if they are not active then they do NOT appear as a valid member any more.    When this process is complete we will end up with an up to date list of current members, who are actually active. So for anyone wanting to make new friends or extend their network the members list will only be those memebers who are active. We will continue to delete members on an ongoing basis so that Transtastic remains up to date.   Future changes will include   1. Moderator approval and rating of all photos, which also means zero tolerance of cock pix as profile photos. At the moment this is policed retroactively but that will change.   2. A firewall between the safe and adult parts of the site...so that those members who don't want to look at genitals dont have to, and those who do can. Just no profile photos of cocks or panty bulge.   3. Making the chat room workable   4. Energising the forums and blogs and other add ons here   Our goal is to make this a site where it's actually fun to be a member, and that you can feel safe to be here. It will take more time and patience from all of you. But we are working on making Trasntastic better and it will happen. Anyone who thinks they can help us in any way then please contact any one of us.   hugs   Your Transtastic Moderating Team xxx   (Christine Taylor, Julia Dream, Katie Glover, Lesley Carrington, Pauline Smith, Rachel Maxwell.)    PS Much as we would love to have the figures of those ladies in the pic ....we don't, but we all try to look our best    
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  • 19 Nov 2016
    All of you members know that Katie Glover took over Transtastic earlier this year. You will also know that she and her techie elves have worked very hard to resolve and solve many of the technical issues here. Lots of those were inherited and the site is still a patchwork of add ons and patches on top of the underlying software. A bit like a quilt made with love.   Now at last Katie and her techies have solved the issue of albums and uploading new photos. There are still other technical challenges ahead for this site, which will be fixed as there is a coherent plan as to which direction the site should take to make it the premier transgender contact website. One where ordinary trans people can use this site safely together with those who prefer to look at adult pix and content. That dilemma is being resolved.   I have had long discussions with Katie and have agreed to stay on as chief moderator for the long term. When I make commitments I stick to them. I have recruited a new team of moderators - Christine Taylor, Julie Dream, Lesley Carrington and Rachel Maxwell - who will start their activities in the next few days.   In the short term we may still have the problem of adult photos appearing on the main safe feed, but this should become less frequent, and we are hopeful that software fixes will resolve this permamently.   As more changes take place I will inform all of you; please be patient and believe in the work that Katie and her techies have done and will continue to do. She has done this in spite of having a heavy workload and a very busy family life. Full marks to her for her commitment to this site, which has been financial - she has invested her money to make this site work.   The new moderating team is part of this overall new approach that has been led by Katie. We will continue these type of improvements over the next weeks and months.     hugs     Pauline xxx  
    127 Posted by Pauline Smith
  • All of you members know that Katie Glover took over Transtastic earlier this year. You will also know that she and her techie elves have worked very hard to resolve and solve many of the technical issues here. Lots of those were inherited and the site is still a patchwork of add ons and patches on top of the underlying software. A bit like a quilt made with love.   Now at last Katie and her techies have solved the issue of albums and uploading new photos. There are still other technical challenges ahead for this site, which will be fixed as there is a coherent plan as to which direction the site should take to make it the premier transgender contact website. One where ordinary trans people can use this site safely together with those who prefer to look at adult pix and content. That dilemma is being resolved.   I have had long discussions with Katie and have agreed to stay on as chief moderator for the long term. When I make commitments I stick to them. I have recruited a new team of moderators - Christine Taylor, Julie Dream, Lesley Carrington and Rachel Maxwell - who will start their activities in the next few days.   In the short term we may still have the problem of adult photos appearing on the main safe feed, but this should become less frequent, and we are hopeful that software fixes will resolve this permamently.   As more changes take place I will inform all of you; please be patient and believe in the work that Katie and her techies have done and will continue to do. She has done this in spite of having a heavy workload and a very busy family life. Full marks to her for her commitment to this site, which has been financial - she has invested her money to make this site work.   The new moderating team is part of this overall new approach that has been led by Katie. We will continue these type of improvements over the next weeks and months.     hugs     Pauline xxx  
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  • 07 Oct 2012
    St Audries Bay holiday camp   This was my first visit to St Audries Bay and as the title suggest it a holiday camp but with a difference, a little bit of magic for every TG girl who has wanted to be whom they really want to be 24/7 set in the beautiful county of Somerset.   If you are familiar with Trans living or the Belmont Society, or tvChix then possibly you may have heard of this event which has taken place twice a year in May and September for the last 10 years. I only aware of this amazing situation through playing with the band KinkyMinx who I also accompanied at this year’s Sparkle.   St Audries is in a remote area and described as a wonderful, sleepy location by the sea on the north Somerset coastline. The holiday camp taken over by t girl’s, their partners and admirers for a week, have chalet, although basic , are very passable and the cost is very reasonable, basically about £160 for the week shared accommodation.   They have a Restaurant, bar and dance hall where they have a DJ plus entertainment.  There is self-service breakfast with a waiter who serves the food to the table. There are stalls selling wigs, dresses and beauty products and a reception shop which sells stationery.   In the grounds there is mini golf, or should that be putting green? Croquet, and tennis, there is also an indoor swimming and sauna, and to top this there are steps leading to a quiet secluded beach which I spent time enjoying as my photos show   Unfortunately rather than looking after this amazing situation, there are those who post negative write ups, mainly to do with disagreements between the entertainments management and various organisations     Most of the complaints seem to me to be from people possibly expecting too much and forgetting that it is far from a normal situation.   The nearest village is Willinton a couple of miles from the camp, with a pub called the Foresters Where I played with KinkyMinx on the 22nd September which can be seen again in my photos with some of the girls from the camp who support the band, and the nearest Town is Watchet where we played on the Friday at a pub called the Esplanade.   It really is amazing walking around in broad daylight and being accepted by shop assistances as though thing‘s are normal apart from a few humorous glances from passes by and I would recommend this holiday to everyone and I am in the process trying to reserve accommodation, and hope to be back in May    Hi, thanks for all the feedback I received for my blog. I am including the full address for those wanting to contact the camp and find out more.   Kentisbury week at St Audries St Audries Bay holiday camp West Quantoxhead Nr Minehead Somerset TR4 4DY  Telephone: 01984632515 Website: www.staudriesbay.co.uk
    12299 Posted by Jady Shaw
  • St Audries Bay holiday camp   This was my first visit to St Audries Bay and as the title suggest it a holiday camp but with a difference, a little bit of magic for every TG girl who has wanted to be whom they really want to be 24/7 set in the beautiful county of Somerset.   If you are familiar with Trans living or the Belmont Society, or tvChix then possibly you may have heard of this event which has taken place twice a year in May and September for the last 10 years. I only aware of this amazing situation through playing with the band KinkyMinx who I also accompanied at this year’s Sparkle.   St Audries is in a remote area and described as a wonderful, sleepy location by the sea on the north Somerset coastline. The holiday camp taken over by t girl’s, their partners and admirers for a week, have chalet, although basic , are very passable and the cost is very reasonable, basically about £160 for the week shared accommodation.   They have a Restaurant, bar and dance hall where they have a DJ plus entertainment.  There is self-service breakfast with a waiter who serves the food to the table. There are stalls selling wigs, dresses and beauty products and a reception shop which sells stationery.   In the grounds there is mini golf, or should that be putting green? Croquet, and tennis, there is also an indoor swimming and sauna, and to top this there are steps leading to a quiet secluded beach which I spent time enjoying as my photos show   Unfortunately rather than looking after this amazing situation, there are those who post negative write ups, mainly to do with disagreements between the entertainments management and various organisations     Most of the complaints seem to me to be from people possibly expecting too much and forgetting that it is far from a normal situation.   The nearest village is Willinton a couple of miles from the camp, with a pub called the Foresters Where I played with KinkyMinx on the 22nd September which can be seen again in my photos with some of the girls from the camp who support the band, and the nearest Town is Watchet where we played on the Friday at a pub called the Esplanade.   It really is amazing walking around in broad daylight and being accepted by shop assistances as though thing‘s are normal apart from a few humorous glances from passes by and I would recommend this holiday to everyone and I am in the process trying to reserve accommodation, and hope to be back in May    Hi, thanks for all the feedback I received for my blog. I am including the full address for those wanting to contact the camp and find out more.   Kentisbury week at St Audries St Audries Bay holiday camp West Quantoxhead Nr Minehead Somerset TR4 4DY  Telephone: 01984632515 Website: www.staudriesbay.co.uk
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  • 13 Sep 2013
    I’ve just had one of the most amazing experience’s since my days as a professional musician in the 1980’s with a with a beautifully Transsexual called Lora G and GG Nikki Lunden and their Band, although Lora and everyone are now back in LAI will be returning to the UK next year, and hopefully I will be playing with the band then   It is funny how things work, if it hadn't been for Beckie running Transtastic which I joined a few years ago, and last year Fiona Cole accepted me as one of the DJ’s on Transtastic radio which reached worldwide and I invited people to send in their own music and had response from Columbia, the UK and the USA, which is when a friend of the Lora G band JONIE VOIX got in touch asking me to play Lora G’s music on the radio   Shortly afterwards Lora introduced herself in the hope that I could help to put her in contact others able to give the band work, or if I was able to help get them work. I haven’t been active in the scene she needed for many years and was unable to help. They came from the States on a promotion tour with just two London gig’s and one gig in Edinburgh   Although well-known on LA scene with the original singer being Nate Tao who was a top 40 male contestant on America Idol.   It would be easier to say who Lora G hasn’t been in contact with, she has 5 Emmy Awards, 3 Edward R. Murrow Awards, Scripps Howard Award, NAPTE IRIS Award, Community & Government Service honors.  http://www.linkedin.com/pub/lora-g/51/259/8a2   Nikki Lunden merged with Lora G replacing Nate Tao as lead singer: Nikki Lunden opened for David Lowry and Johnny Hickman of Cracker, Devon Allman’s Honeytribe, Melissa Ferrick, Pieta Brown and Bo Ramsey, sharing festival bills with Spin Doctors, Gin Blossoms, 7 Mary Three, and has recently performed with Micki Free of Shalamar.)   Although I didn’t have a lot of time to find out much about Kimberley Smith, who is an extremely good backing vocalist, again was such a great person to be with one couldn’t help but feel love all for those that made up the band   The Lora G drummer is Gerry Doot who was in a British Punk band back in 1977 called Animal Games and released an album by the same name, which was then included on the compilation album called ‘London The Punk Rock collection’   Andy Catt The bass player with the Lora G band is Norwegian living in the States and what a talented bassist, Joco, Stanly, Na Andy Catt and very cool   Description of the Lora G band The Lora G and Nikki Lunden Band is comprised of a group of incredibly talent musicians and singers—all who have their own bands and/or solo albums or individual recording projects. These core members come together because of their love of creating original music, love of each other and belief in the band. Because their material is so varied, they call it: Alternative Eclectic Rock The members of Lora G Band and Nikki Lunden who played in the UK are: Lora G—Guitar, Keyboards, Vocals, Songwriter, Co-Producer Nikki Lunden -Lead Singer, Songwriter, Guitar Kimberley Smith—Vocals  Andy Catt—Bass, Vocals, Guitar Gerry Doot-drums and percussion Business Manager: Dennis Kennelly   On arrival at Heathrow Airport they spent 30 hours trying to get through custom’s being held because they were here to promote the band instead of to earn loads of money from the gig’s No one would believe them which is when they first made contact with me, but again I was not in a position to help them, and all I could do was suggest they get in contact with one of the gig’s they were playing at to see if they would stand as guarantor, and they were fortunate the Landlord from the Patricks Bar Crystal Palace was able to help   Although it was slow going for them when they first arrived, and only had two gigs when they first touched down, through their own determination and hard work spending hours searching the net, managed to achieve more than many bands resident in London and the UK. They were here for 18 days and ended up doing 17 gigs, by the time they left, 2 of these on the same day. They played at the Edinburgh Fringe festival the world's largest arts festival, all the time staying in contact with the bands followers back in LA,   Nikki Lunden knackered still found time to smile whilst making a video of their arrival to Edinburgh, ‘after a 12 hour drive on the wrong side of the road in the rain, narrow roads, oncoming traffic, ugghh what a night!! Way to go Andy for getting us here and not knocking me out for my back seat driving!! – Nikki’   Returning to London, they played the New Cross Inn which was my chance to meet up with them. But before the band arrived this much taller person than I (being only 5’8”) introduced themselves, who was our very own Beckie Cannon in drab, who I didn’t recognise, never seen before lol I was also in drab, and Lora later in the week would asked where are all the TG’s in the UK not having met a single one the whole time she was here? and I had to agree with her that the Transgender scene in the States seems a lot more open than here.   Shortly after the Lora G and Nikki Lunden band turned up, which gave me a very brief moment to introduce Beckie who Lora thought was really handsome, and I introduced myself as Jady from Transtastic. Lora G was pleased to meet us, then went to work organising and setting up to play, and asked me to video the show which was a 40 minutes set which although not a Hugh audience went down really well, however I missed saying goodbye to Beckie when she left, becoming very involved with the band   Once the band had completed the set, I mentioned that I would really enjoy playing with the band and Lora knowing I was a sax playing through my profile on Transtastic said ‘what would you play’ Having played her music on Transtastic radio I knew one of the songs that rocked called ‘Hear Me’ which I suggested to Lora who turned to bass player Andy Catt, who had joined us, both said he knows the number, and Lora replied ‘yeah come on down to Patricks Bar in Crystal Palace on Saturday   Being a 67 OAP and at times feeling my age I almost didn’t bother to go but thought why not go along even if I didn’t play but as I walked into Patrick’s Bar Lora came forward making me feel part of what was happening by giving me a hug and straight away introduced me to everyone saying here’s our sax player.   They played 3 numbers before inviting me to play their song ‘Here Me’, and partly to cover themselves because they didn’t know me but were confident in themselves to give me a chance to prove myself Nikki Lunden introduce me by saying give Jady a big welcome it’s his first time playing with us so we don’t know what’s going to happen.    After the song finished which went down really well, she was full of praise and having been introduced to their finance manager who come up giving praise saying ‘wow you rock you really took the roof off’ and everyone made me feel so good, that when Lora invited to play their next gig in East London I was more than happy   Although I didn’t have too much time to ask Lora questions I asked her had she transitioned and she said ‘yes completely’ and was a woman, and the only thing she was unable to do was give birth, although she does have 3 grown up daughters, one of which is at University here in the UK   Lora G is such an amazing person I don’t think there was anyone she didn’t touch, who didn’t end up thinking they were sharing a very special moment. The next gig was at the George Tavern, which Pauline Forster an English artist, performer, musician, designer and landlady of The Tavern in the East End of London, and where Jamie Lovatt a singer and frontman of the band Romance works running the bar, was to meet Lora G and Nikki Lunden then  join the Abbey Road session backing vocals on Nikki Lunden’s new release ‘Where Love Lie’s’   Although I wasn’t asked at this time to go into the Abbey studio, I was invited to play at the club Proud in Camden which was the first of two gigs’ in one evening about 4 miles apart, so I decided to use my car to get to the first gig which is about 7 miles from me, to start at 8 pm, and then onto the 12 Bar Club in Denmark Street with some of the bands gear to originally start at 10,20 pm   We got to the 12 Bar club (2nd gig) at 10pm when as I pulled up to unload my car, an African traffic warden moved in and said ‘you cannot park there’ but I said 'I am only going to be a couple of minutes' his reply 'well make sure you are' we unloaded and went in the club just after 10 pm expecting to play at 10.20 but didn’t go on until gone 11..25 pm because another act was booked and Lora G was the main act of the evening   At 11.22 the c--- of a warden put a parking ticket on the car stating I was unlawfully parked in a disabled bay for 2 minutes until 11.24, however I’ve appealed against the ticket because 1/ there is no disabled bay in Denmark Street the bay I had pulled into was a Permit Holders Only bay and 2/ at 11.22 I took a photo with my mobile phone of the act performing before Lora G went on stage.   Then at 11.25 took another photo of the Lora G bands first number and then shortly after was playing with the band which the whole club could prove, that I was in the club taking photos of the band before performing the numbers that I was playing, and even have the time of the shot’s on the phone lol    The gig went great and Lora said are you coming to the Abbey Road studios? And thinking only vocals were being recorded for their new song said ‘I don’t know maybe if I can get there, but it would be later than they started. I decided to go and give support to the band   I thought I can’t walk into the most famous studio in the world without my instrument, you never know there may be a band that wants some sax, and even when I got to the reception desk I wasn’t sure if my name had been left, or if I would even get in and meekly said I’m with the Lora G band   She replied ‘oh yes you are expected’ (which made me feel really chuffed) ‘I will call them and get one of the studio staff to take you through’ when they came I said ‘Is there any where I can leave my sax cause I don’t think I am playing’ and he replied ‘You can leave it there but I thought they said that you are recording’, which made me perk even up more then said ‘oh alright I will bring it with me’.   The last time I stood in a studio at Abbey Road was about 1972 with a band called ‘The Soul Stars’ given a chance with a free recording session by EMI, but messed it up and lost out. So by now I am feeling really good, here I was having just meet this band, had played 4 gig’s and in the most famous studio’s in the world, All in just one week     By now my feelings for Lora G had grown so much for this very special person, I really can’t say enough about her or the whole band, and when I walked into the studio everyone who respected her automatically accepted me, and I was made to feel very welcomed by Lora who gave me with a hug   When I went down to play I had no idea what was expected. The bass player and second vocalist Kimberly had left the UK early, who’s parts were to be added at a later date once back in LA, so first Lora G and Gerry Doot the drummer had laid down a guide for the vocals to sing over, then Nikki Lunden and Jamie Lovatt had laid down their parts and finally I went down to play.   Being a Nikki Lunden composition I asked her to go down into the studio booth and conduct where she wanted me to play then it was 1, 2, 3, 4, blow, I think most artist are their own worst critics and I really didn’t think I played good, but we played through the song about 4 times and everyone said ok that’s sounds good, and that was it   Then Tony Billings Station Manager & Presenter at Exosphere Radio, Gerry, Jamie, Lora plus the two recording engineers, then came down into the studio and Nikki Lunden then got down on one knee and proposed to Lora G who accepted with the rest of us applauding and congratulating,   Lora then took us all out for a slap up meal with a magnum of Champaign, when I was able to learn a little bit about her past, those that she’s played with, plus some of the missions, beliefs, and the things that matter to her   She has an Amy of loyal followers, and helpers and although I’ve meet many ‘STARS’ during my 40 years of playing none have been as beautiful a person as Lora G. Her trails have given her strength without the nastiness that often ambitious people become and everyone agreed that we had shared a very special moment in time   It wasn’t to be the total end of my involvement with Lora G, on the Saturday I had gone to Denmark Street in the West End to take some photo evidence for the parking ticket Had I gone into the street the way I normally do which is from the other end; what happened next was so unbelievable it questioned my belief regards fate, I had cycled up to the street in the West End, and as I went into that end of the street I just about heard a voice call out Jady   Something made me look around and standing on the corner with a load of band gear was Lora G, Nikki Lunden and Gerry Doot, who should have flown to Paris but because they had so much gear had to rebook a flight from Luton Airport instead of Heathrow, and were in the process of selling gear unable to take it with having received sponsored from Hiwatt amplifiers who had given Lora a whole new bass stack, so I looking after the gear they couldn’t take back for them    I’ve never been one for fate but a string of coincidence or what? I do know my feelings well up inside when I think that I’ve had this amazing ride with very beautiful TS, and a great band, witnessed an engagement and just keep thinking wow, what a ride every time I think about having played 4 gigs and recorded in the most famous studio’s in the world, all in one week.
    8400 Posted by Jady Shaw
  • I’ve just had one of the most amazing experience’s since my days as a professional musician in the 1980’s with a with a beautifully Transsexual called Lora G and GG Nikki Lunden and their Band, although Lora and everyone are now back in LAI will be returning to the UK next year, and hopefully I will be playing with the band then   It is funny how things work, if it hadn't been for Beckie running Transtastic which I joined a few years ago, and last year Fiona Cole accepted me as one of the DJ’s on Transtastic radio which reached worldwide and I invited people to send in their own music and had response from Columbia, the UK and the USA, which is when a friend of the Lora G band JONIE VOIX got in touch asking me to play Lora G’s music on the radio   Shortly afterwards Lora introduced herself in the hope that I could help to put her in contact others able to give the band work, or if I was able to help get them work. I haven’t been active in the scene she needed for many years and was unable to help. They came from the States on a promotion tour with just two London gig’s and one gig in Edinburgh   Although well-known on LA scene with the original singer being Nate Tao who was a top 40 male contestant on America Idol.   It would be easier to say who Lora G hasn’t been in contact with, she has 5 Emmy Awards, 3 Edward R. Murrow Awards, Scripps Howard Award, NAPTE IRIS Award, Community & Government Service honors.  http://www.linkedin.com/pub/lora-g/51/259/8a2   Nikki Lunden merged with Lora G replacing Nate Tao as lead singer: Nikki Lunden opened for David Lowry and Johnny Hickman of Cracker, Devon Allman’s Honeytribe, Melissa Ferrick, Pieta Brown and Bo Ramsey, sharing festival bills with Spin Doctors, Gin Blossoms, 7 Mary Three, and has recently performed with Micki Free of Shalamar.)   Although I didn’t have a lot of time to find out much about Kimberley Smith, who is an extremely good backing vocalist, again was such a great person to be with one couldn’t help but feel love all for those that made up the band   The Lora G drummer is Gerry Doot who was in a British Punk band back in 1977 called Animal Games and released an album by the same name, which was then included on the compilation album called ‘London The Punk Rock collection’   Andy Catt The bass player with the Lora G band is Norwegian living in the States and what a talented bassist, Joco, Stanly, Na Andy Catt and very cool   Description of the Lora G band The Lora G and Nikki Lunden Band is comprised of a group of incredibly talent musicians and singers—all who have their own bands and/or solo albums or individual recording projects. These core members come together because of their love of creating original music, love of each other and belief in the band. Because their material is so varied, they call it: Alternative Eclectic Rock The members of Lora G Band and Nikki Lunden who played in the UK are: Lora G—Guitar, Keyboards, Vocals, Songwriter, Co-Producer Nikki Lunden -Lead Singer, Songwriter, Guitar Kimberley Smith—Vocals  Andy Catt—Bass, Vocals, Guitar Gerry Doot-drums and percussion Business Manager: Dennis Kennelly   On arrival at Heathrow Airport they spent 30 hours trying to get through custom’s being held because they were here to promote the band instead of to earn loads of money from the gig’s No one would believe them which is when they first made contact with me, but again I was not in a position to help them, and all I could do was suggest they get in contact with one of the gig’s they were playing at to see if they would stand as guarantor, and they were fortunate the Landlord from the Patricks Bar Crystal Palace was able to help   Although it was slow going for them when they first arrived, and only had two gigs when they first touched down, through their own determination and hard work spending hours searching the net, managed to achieve more than many bands resident in London and the UK. They were here for 18 days and ended up doing 17 gigs, by the time they left, 2 of these on the same day. They played at the Edinburgh Fringe festival the world's largest arts festival, all the time staying in contact with the bands followers back in LA,   Nikki Lunden knackered still found time to smile whilst making a video of their arrival to Edinburgh, ‘after a 12 hour drive on the wrong side of the road in the rain, narrow roads, oncoming traffic, ugghh what a night!! Way to go Andy for getting us here and not knocking me out for my back seat driving!! – Nikki’   Returning to London, they played the New Cross Inn which was my chance to meet up with them. But before the band arrived this much taller person than I (being only 5’8”) introduced themselves, who was our very own Beckie Cannon in drab, who I didn’t recognise, never seen before lol I was also in drab, and Lora later in the week would asked where are all the TG’s in the UK not having met a single one the whole time she was here? and I had to agree with her that the Transgender scene in the States seems a lot more open than here.   Shortly after the Lora G and Nikki Lunden band turned up, which gave me a very brief moment to introduce Beckie who Lora thought was really handsome, and I introduced myself as Jady from Transtastic. Lora G was pleased to meet us, then went to work organising and setting up to play, and asked me to video the show which was a 40 minutes set which although not a Hugh audience went down really well, however I missed saying goodbye to Beckie when she left, becoming very involved with the band   Once the band had completed the set, I mentioned that I would really enjoy playing with the band and Lora knowing I was a sax playing through my profile on Transtastic said ‘what would you play’ Having played her music on Transtastic radio I knew one of the songs that rocked called ‘Hear Me’ which I suggested to Lora who turned to bass player Andy Catt, who had joined us, both said he knows the number, and Lora replied ‘yeah come on down to Patricks Bar in Crystal Palace on Saturday   Being a 67 OAP and at times feeling my age I almost didn’t bother to go but thought why not go along even if I didn’t play but as I walked into Patrick’s Bar Lora came forward making me feel part of what was happening by giving me a hug and straight away introduced me to everyone saying here’s our sax player.   They played 3 numbers before inviting me to play their song ‘Here Me’, and partly to cover themselves because they didn’t know me but were confident in themselves to give me a chance to prove myself Nikki Lunden introduce me by saying give Jady a big welcome it’s his first time playing with us so we don’t know what’s going to happen.    After the song finished which went down really well, she was full of praise and having been introduced to their finance manager who come up giving praise saying ‘wow you rock you really took the roof off’ and everyone made me feel so good, that when Lora invited to play their next gig in East London I was more than happy   Although I didn’t have too much time to ask Lora questions I asked her had she transitioned and she said ‘yes completely’ and was a woman, and the only thing she was unable to do was give birth, although she does have 3 grown up daughters, one of which is at University here in the UK   Lora G is such an amazing person I don’t think there was anyone she didn’t touch, who didn’t end up thinking they were sharing a very special moment. The next gig was at the George Tavern, which Pauline Forster an English artist, performer, musician, designer and landlady of The Tavern in the East End of London, and where Jamie Lovatt a singer and frontman of the band Romance works running the bar, was to meet Lora G and Nikki Lunden then  join the Abbey Road session backing vocals on Nikki Lunden’s new release ‘Where Love Lie’s’   Although I wasn’t asked at this time to go into the Abbey studio, I was invited to play at the club Proud in Camden which was the first of two gigs’ in one evening about 4 miles apart, so I decided to use my car to get to the first gig which is about 7 miles from me, to start at 8 pm, and then onto the 12 Bar Club in Denmark Street with some of the bands gear to originally start at 10,20 pm   We got to the 12 Bar club (2nd gig) at 10pm when as I pulled up to unload my car, an African traffic warden moved in and said ‘you cannot park there’ but I said 'I am only going to be a couple of minutes' his reply 'well make sure you are' we unloaded and went in the club just after 10 pm expecting to play at 10.20 but didn’t go on until gone 11..25 pm because another act was booked and Lora G was the main act of the evening   At 11.22 the c--- of a warden put a parking ticket on the car stating I was unlawfully parked in a disabled bay for 2 minutes until 11.24, however I’ve appealed against the ticket because 1/ there is no disabled bay in Denmark Street the bay I had pulled into was a Permit Holders Only bay and 2/ at 11.22 I took a photo with my mobile phone of the act performing before Lora G went on stage.   Then at 11.25 took another photo of the Lora G bands first number and then shortly after was playing with the band which the whole club could prove, that I was in the club taking photos of the band before performing the numbers that I was playing, and even have the time of the shot’s on the phone lol    The gig went great and Lora said are you coming to the Abbey Road studios? And thinking only vocals were being recorded for their new song said ‘I don’t know maybe if I can get there, but it would be later than they started. I decided to go and give support to the band   I thought I can’t walk into the most famous studio in the world without my instrument, you never know there may be a band that wants some sax, and even when I got to the reception desk I wasn’t sure if my name had been left, or if I would even get in and meekly said I’m with the Lora G band   She replied ‘oh yes you are expected’ (which made me feel really chuffed) ‘I will call them and get one of the studio staff to take you through’ when they came I said ‘Is there any where I can leave my sax cause I don’t think I am playing’ and he replied ‘You can leave it there but I thought they said that you are recording’, which made me perk even up more then said ‘oh alright I will bring it with me’.   The last time I stood in a studio at Abbey Road was about 1972 with a band called ‘The Soul Stars’ given a chance with a free recording session by EMI, but messed it up and lost out. So by now I am feeling really good, here I was having just meet this band, had played 4 gig’s and in the most famous studio’s in the world, All in just one week     By now my feelings for Lora G had grown so much for this very special person, I really can’t say enough about her or the whole band, and when I walked into the studio everyone who respected her automatically accepted me, and I was made to feel very welcomed by Lora who gave me with a hug   When I went down to play I had no idea what was expected. The bass player and second vocalist Kimberly had left the UK early, who’s parts were to be added at a later date once back in LA, so first Lora G and Gerry Doot the drummer had laid down a guide for the vocals to sing over, then Nikki Lunden and Jamie Lovatt had laid down their parts and finally I went down to play.   Being a Nikki Lunden composition I asked her to go down into the studio booth and conduct where she wanted me to play then it was 1, 2, 3, 4, blow, I think most artist are their own worst critics and I really didn’t think I played good, but we played through the song about 4 times and everyone said ok that’s sounds good, and that was it   Then Tony Billings Station Manager & Presenter at Exosphere Radio, Gerry, Jamie, Lora plus the two recording engineers, then came down into the studio and Nikki Lunden then got down on one knee and proposed to Lora G who accepted with the rest of us applauding and congratulating,   Lora then took us all out for a slap up meal with a magnum of Champaign, when I was able to learn a little bit about her past, those that she’s played with, plus some of the missions, beliefs, and the things that matter to her   She has an Amy of loyal followers, and helpers and although I’ve meet many ‘STARS’ during my 40 years of playing none have been as beautiful a person as Lora G. Her trails have given her strength without the nastiness that often ambitious people become and everyone agreed that we had shared a very special moment in time   It wasn’t to be the total end of my involvement with Lora G, on the Saturday I had gone to Denmark Street in the West End to take some photo evidence for the parking ticket Had I gone into the street the way I normally do which is from the other end; what happened next was so unbelievable it questioned my belief regards fate, I had cycled up to the street in the West End, and as I went into that end of the street I just about heard a voice call out Jady   Something made me look around and standing on the corner with a load of band gear was Lora G, Nikki Lunden and Gerry Doot, who should have flown to Paris but because they had so much gear had to rebook a flight from Luton Airport instead of Heathrow, and were in the process of selling gear unable to take it with having received sponsored from Hiwatt amplifiers who had given Lora a whole new bass stack, so I looking after the gear they couldn’t take back for them    I’ve never been one for fate but a string of coincidence or what? I do know my feelings well up inside when I think that I’ve had this amazing ride with very beautiful TS, and a great band, witnessed an engagement and just keep thinking wow, what a ride every time I think about having played 4 gigs and recorded in the most famous studio’s in the world, all in one week.
    Sep 13, 2013 8400
  • 11 Dec 2012
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  • 22 Mar 2013
    A male primary school teacher who began a new term as a woman has been found dead.Pupils at St Mary Magdalen's C of E Primary School in Accrington, Lancashire, were told in December that Nathan Upton should be addressed as Miss Meadows after the Christmas break.This week they were informed that their teacher, Lucy Meadows, had died. The 32-year-old was found at a house in Accrington on Tuesday.The teacher had thanked school governors and staff for their support when she announced her plans to return as a woman in January.A letter to parents read: "Mr Upton has recently made a significant change in his life and will be transitioning to live as a woman."After the Christmas break, she will return to work as Miss Meadows."Concerns from some parents were reported in the media with one father saying that his three sons at the school were "too young to be dealing with that".A spokeswoman for Lancashire Police said: "At 4.45pm on Tuesday, police were called by the ambulance service to a report of a sudden death at an address on Ramsbottom Street in Accrington."On arrival they found the body of a 32-year-old woman. There are no suspicious circumstances and a file will be prepared and passed to the coroner."In a statement on the school website, head teacher Karen Hardman said: "It is with great sadness that I have to inform you of the death of Miss Lucy Meadows."Our staff will be working closely with bereavement teams and are here to offer the children and yourselves any support in any way we can."
    7860 Posted by Bebe Brum
  • A male primary school teacher who began a new term as a woman has been found dead.Pupils at St Mary Magdalen's C of E Primary School in Accrington, Lancashire, were told in December that Nathan Upton should be addressed as Miss Meadows after the Christmas break.This week they were informed that their teacher, Lucy Meadows, had died. The 32-year-old was found at a house in Accrington on Tuesday.The teacher had thanked school governors and staff for their support when she announced her plans to return as a woman in January.A letter to parents read: "Mr Upton has recently made a significant change in his life and will be transitioning to live as a woman."After the Christmas break, she will return to work as Miss Meadows."Concerns from some parents were reported in the media with one father saying that his three sons at the school were "too young to be dealing with that".A spokeswoman for Lancashire Police said: "At 4.45pm on Tuesday, police were called by the ambulance service to a report of a sudden death at an address on Ramsbottom Street in Accrington."On arrival they found the body of a 32-year-old woman. There are no suspicious circumstances and a file will be prepared and passed to the coroner."In a statement on the school website, head teacher Karen Hardman said: "It is with great sadness that I have to inform you of the death of Miss Lucy Meadows."Our staff will be working closely with bereavement teams and are here to offer the children and yourselves any support in any way we can."
    Mar 22, 2013 7860
  • 03 Aug 2013
    Hi everyone, I'm trying to find out just how many of us fit into another small community known as ASMR? If you don't know what ASMR is, there's still a chance that you get it but you've never heard it given a name before. ASMR is basically when a (usually) audio stimulus triggers a pleasurable response in your brain... the closest anyone's been able to get to describing it is a 'brain orgasm'... But it is NOT a sex thing... I first experienced this when I was about 13 and my geography teacher was talking in a really quiet way... I just sat there with this incredible fuzzy feeling in my head that lasted the entire lesson. I know I'm not alone in getting this but I know that a lot of people don't recognise it. So I wanted to ask you all... Do any of you get this sensation? I figure that as a community we have to be pretty open to admitting things that other people might not understand ;)
    7520 Posted by Juliette Noir
  • Hi everyone, I'm trying to find out just how many of us fit into another small community known as ASMR? If you don't know what ASMR is, there's still a chance that you get it but you've never heard it given a name before. ASMR is basically when a (usually) audio stimulus triggers a pleasurable response in your brain... the closest anyone's been able to get to describing it is a 'brain orgasm'... But it is NOT a sex thing... I first experienced this when I was about 13 and my geography teacher was talking in a really quiet way... I just sat there with this incredible fuzzy feeling in my head that lasted the entire lesson. I know I'm not alone in getting this but I know that a lot of people don't recognise it. So I wanted to ask you all... Do any of you get this sensation? I figure that as a community we have to be pretty open to admitting things that other people might not understand ;)
    Aug 03, 2013 7520
  • 26 Apr 2013
    The missus bought a paperback,down Shepton Mallet way,I had a look inside her bag;T'was "Fifty Shades Of Grey".Well I just left her to it,And at 10 I went to bed.An hour later she appeared;The sight filled me with dread...In her left she held a rope;And in her right a whipShe threw them down upon the floor,And then began to strip.Well fifty years or so ago;I might have had a peek;But Mabel hasn't weathered well;She's eighty four next weekWatching Mabel bump and grind;Could not have been much grimmer.And things then went from bad to worse;She toppled off her Zimmer!She struggled back upon her feet;A couple minutes later;She put her teeth back in and saidI am a dominatorNow if you knew our Mabel,You'd see just why I spluttered,I'd spent two months in tractionfor the last complaint I'd uttered.She stood there nude and nakedBent forward just a bitI went to hold her, sensual likeand stood on her left titMabel screamed, her teeth shot out;My god what had I done!?She moaned and groaned then shouted out:"Step on the other one"Well readers, I can't tell no more;About what occurred that day.Suffice to say my jet black hair,Turned fifty shades of grey.
    7492 Posted by diana spencer
  • The missus bought a paperback,down Shepton Mallet way,I had a look inside her bag;T'was "Fifty Shades Of Grey".Well I just left her to it,And at 10 I went to bed.An hour later she appeared;The sight filled me with dread...In her left she held a rope;And in her right a whipShe threw them down upon the floor,And then began to strip.Well fifty years or so ago;I might have had a peek;But Mabel hasn't weathered well;She's eighty four next weekWatching Mabel bump and grind;Could not have been much grimmer.And things then went from bad to worse;She toppled off her Zimmer!She struggled back upon her feet;A couple minutes later;She put her teeth back in and saidI am a dominatorNow if you knew our Mabel,You'd see just why I spluttered,I'd spent two months in tractionfor the last complaint I'd uttered.She stood there nude and nakedBent forward just a bitI went to hold her, sensual likeand stood on her left titMabel screamed, her teeth shot out;My god what had I done!?She moaned and groaned then shouted out:"Step on the other one"Well readers, I can't tell no more;About what occurred that day.Suffice to say my jet black hair,Turned fifty shades of grey.
    Apr 26, 2013 7492