I am a girl who spends her whole life being and feeling and acting as a feminine man.
I have to do that,while appearing like a Man ?
I have to look like a man, or I will be threatened?

Just wondered if it was kinda cathartic to post pics of yourself here ?
I know some of you meet for Drab Drinks ?

This post was edited by Nicky Miniskirt at October 14, 2011 4:45 PM BST

I can only speak for me....there are times when I have to be a man - father, son, brother for starters...and when I am working the working me is male. I think the inside me is the same as what ever outside image I present as Pauline or Paul.

Do I feel threatened? No...not that I can think of? Is it easier living in places like Manchester and the Netherlands to be a T girl ...probably. Will I show here a pic of me as guy...not sure.

Another provocative piece Nicky......thanks; and that's a nice pic of you as well.

hugs Pauline xxxx
This post was edited by Pauline Smith at October 8, 2011 8:51 AM BST

When ever I go out dressed, it has always got to be trendy and feminine, sometimes the sexy look with mini skirt or mini dress other times still trendy but wearing a nice pair or jeans or leggings with knee hi boots or high heel shoes, obviously if the weather is not to good and need to some shopping then jeans and boots it is, and as the weather is getting colder,its time to get a padded jacket or trendy coat on.

Do I feel threatened, no I dont, dont get me wrong I have been out at night to woods etc where t girls go and been approached by admirers but only twice as off last night as only came upto me aggressively, straight away I tell them to go away as I dont like or et on with aggressive people no matter if they are a admirer of t girls, and the first one was the other night so all the years I have been going out dressed, I have only recently had these 2 happenings and never before in over 27 years

thaks for the article

Samantha xxx

well for me i work as my male alter ego have a few jobs being freelance and with most people i work with they dont know im a tgirl and they more than likely wouldnt like it i know some wouldnt care less and amy is me so is always there with me wether im up a ladder hanging lights at a theatre (not to be done in heels too dangerous lol) or teaching guitar or acting in an events company or doing big rigging jobs im blokey but still me if you know what i mean

plus sorry i cant put a pic of my other self it would scare the panties off you lol xxx

I'm in a similar position Amy, although I totally buried Suzy when as a male. However I am starting to bring that persona through into my every day life.....wish I'd done it years ago lol.
As for a drab pic, sorry afraid not as I look like the typical IT geek.....very freaky :-(

well you still look very attractive anyway xx

Hi all
My male life is very male, I work for an engineering co as a welder/fabricator and R&D, even my hobbies have always been very male affairs, flying model aircraft and hooning round on motorbikes, My girlie life can't overlap my male life, i think everyone from both my working world and hobby world would make my life intolerable, but to be honest i like to keep the Girlie world seperate from the male one as it's just a bit more special when i do go girlie...
Male mode in leather lol
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Girlie mode, not in leather
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This post was edited by Sarah O'Brien at October 8, 2011 3:57 PM BST

So why is there this extreme cutoff of our personalities? Are we Schizophrenic?
No !!
Although, after a few drinks, I have been known to dance like a girl in drab !
I have been becoming more and more comfortable with my feminine side and have been allowing my hair to grow long and lush. I work in a field where feminine strengths are imperative but where I also need to be a "bloke" for some clients.
I guess I assume a slightly different persona with everyone I work with or meet?

I am recreating myself everyday. I would hate to be stuck in one role or persona for the rest of my life. I mean, I am "ME" to my core, but I am also an actor.

Fuck, that sounds like I am dishonest.
I am not. Honesty is my mantra and my creed.
All I'm saying is that we have a wide range of realities within our beautiful lives.

One of my realities is my female persona, Nicky.

It is interesting I think, that, as my hair grows longer, so many people, men and women, have felt the need to comment. One client, on a men's social group outing; he is a rather racist, misogynist bugger, that I looked like a bitch whore. He said it in Italian. The Italians have many words for women who are strong and beautiful. Most of them derogatory.

Anyway ,..... I felt it was a compliment !!

Nicky xxxXXXoooOOOoooXXXxxx

I still don't know if I hate myself for being a man or love myself for being a woman ???

i dont hate myself for being a bloke but i do get more urges and feel myself wanting to be more of a women i sometimes look at a georgous RG and think you are so lucky i wish i looked like that but i am lucky in ways as i dress as both and sarah love the pics the contrast is amazing love the dress to xxxx

Yes, I look at some women and think, why wasn't I born like that ?

A mistake of genetics, just a gene one way or the other ...??

My Dad's sperm and my Mum's egg got it all wrong !! The little fuckers are soooo primitive !

Nicky xxx

Oh how life takes us in strange ways as l,m sooo girlie but eeeek l can be sooo blokey it even make me cringe giggle. Blokey me works in the building trade yikes and l just adore my job tho its deffo not a job l could do as Annie.
l kinda gotta split personality l suppose, as l feel theres 2 me,s though l think Annies my best personality by far as T is just a right muppet but he erns the money for the Annie part to spend he he.
Hugz Annie xx

Hi Girls,

Well my persona is as follows, I live eat and breath Rebecca 24/7 when in Rebecca mode I am femme and have found I do I suppose girl things like the way I hold my hands the way I sit the way I stand stuff like that.
I try to walk more femme in fact when I was at Dee Selecta I was told be Dee herself that I had a really nice walk not something I was trying to do it was natural.

In bob mode the same things are evident I still feel like Rebecca is there, I have to be careful how I poetry myself as a lot of little things are now so natural. I think a lot as to do with I am out to my partner and Rebecca as be set free.
Before I came out I was dressing when I could and in fear of the usual, and all the “Pamper time” was very little as I did not want to draw any attention to my femme side.
Now it’s all out I have a regular routine and everyday I moisturise my face, treat my eyes with Liz Earle eyebright which is fantastic for tired and puffy eyes and really does sooth them girls. I use Liz Earle super balm which you put on your nail cuticles and it is amazing for keeping your nails look really nice.
That brings me to another thing I do I have grown my nails and I am very proud of them. They are not really long but compared to most men they are and I love the way they look when painted. Do I care what people think “NO” I have spent and as my wife pointed out the other day WASTED so many years hiding in the dark like a vampire I now want to embrace Rebecca’s world.

I pamper myself daily when means because I do that Rebecca is always there. I use Nivia hand and nail cream as much as possible to keep my hands soft. After a shower I always use Johnson’s baby oil you put it on wet skin and rub it in, then dry yourself as normal it leaves your skin SO soft.

I have come along way thanks to Angie, and the other day I was in Tesco before work and walked past the makeup stall and picked up some Rimmel eyeshadow I knew a girl saw me but I just did my thing and went on.

A few weeks ago I said to my wife I needed some foundation and said to her I am going into boots for advise, because I had shared so much with Angie in coming out I thought sod it just go for it.
In I went I was so nervous I went up to this girl and told her I wanted some foundation for myself, told her I was a T-Girl and my partner knew OMG she was amazing and I got some foundation and other bits she was totally ok with it, and before anyone says that was sales talk No IT WAS NOT.
She told me about her boyfriend being femme and said if he came out she would be shocked but ok.

Right hope some of the above makes some sense xxxxxx

Love
Rebecca xxxxxxx

Hmmm, don't think many work colleages would understand about Suzi. Very few people know about Suzi, my wife is one of the few and she is amazing with her, I feel very lucky. Besides my male and female personas are so wide apart from each other, don't think I'd like them to mix. It's a fabulous release and a huge rush being Suzi. Not that I don't like my male side either just sooo different. Suzi xxx

This post was edited by Suzi Slutz at November 5, 2011 9:02 PM GMT

Nicky! you are the thinking man's crumpet! another provocative and thought inspiring piece
I work in drab all the time apart from one agency, who knows about me, its run by girls and in the evening if we are out ‘on-site’, as it were, I’ll dress, but mostly it’s me in drab but wearing stylish and smart male clothes! The thing is, I am probably exactly the same in either male or female mode although my body language gets more female when I’m dressed, although that is probably a result of me relaxing and becoming less self conscious as I feel my female behaviour is innate!
I feel as though I have to work at being male! All through my life I probably became a bit of a chameleon trying to blend in. I started out playing in a pro rock band at the very end of the 60’s and got fired from that for wearing a dress on gigs! I got beaten up a few times for being overtly female in my look and clothes, so I was a coward and blended more to avoid the wrong sort of attention. It is still me though underneath and people and lovers who know in both modes have said I am the same either way, although obviously more attractive when wearing something stylish and pretty by Monsoon!
I do sometimes give myself away......such as in smoothing a non-existent skirt under my rear when sitting down in a male suit! That looks a bit odd!
Otherwise I think we are all being pretty honest about ourselves we’re just constrained by the society we live in and to survive keep mostly to its rules and prejudices!
A
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p.s. the test is......... watch a Jason Statham DVD at home, on your own, while drinking a can of lager and eating a large deep crust pizza!..... if you keep your knees together throughout, drink your beer with a pinky raised and after each piece of pizza dab your lips with a tissue!! .........your a girl!
XXXX
A

Ha ! Oh Andrea, you do make me giggle !
For me though, it is a glass of vodka and iced tea and a salad dripping with balsamic and olive oil !!!
And usually my legs are crossed under me, high heels kicked off, and trying not to lose all my lippy to the rim of the glass. The suburban slut lives !!

I think I probably express my femininity, in male mode, by wearing fabulous, mostly real retro, shirts from the sixties and seventies.
I have a collection of killer shirts that almost rivals my collection of dresses and femme apparel.
I always wear flared Levis. I cannot wear my high heeled cowboy boots or elastic sided cuban heels because it's just impractical. I often wear brightly coloured beaded bracelets made by Northern Kenyan women which I bought at our local open plains zoo ....
I am growing my hair longer and longer, as I say, and I think most people that I deal with can sense that there is something unusual or feminine about me.
So many males of my generation try to blend in and look like just another drone and their lifestyles are similarly fashioned by their lack of imagination and courage.
WEll, not me ! I am a freak, ... I'm a weirdo ...
and loving it !
Nicky XXX
This post was edited by Nicky Miniskirt at February 18, 2012 4:31 AM GMT

I only re-discovered my femme mode quite recently and like the genie she is not going back in the closet. I have often worn clothes that others thought were feminine not bacause I was trying to provoke a reaction but because drab is often just that drab. I stopped wearing a watch about 7 years ago and wore brackets instead (and still do). I never had a problem with what I wore if anything if I thought it did raise an eyebrow or two then the more I'd wear it. Now my femme side it out I find myself doing more and more things 'properly'. The more settled I am with both sides the more I am at peace with myself.
My conversion came at the company Christmas party, the normal lads at the bar trying to decide who they were going to chat up once they had enough booze inside them and the girls on the dance floor enjoying themselves. I looked at them both and Josephine said "Sod that" and I joined the girls and thoroughly enjoyed myself. Next time I may even try to go dressed to really shock them.