The saga continues

• Posted by Rachel Maxwell January 14, 2014 #  #Psychology  #depression  #hope  #medication  2,548 views
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  Okay, so. I just had two appointments today both with doctors, but for different reasons. The first wasn't very happy that my blood sugar was higher than last time. A full point higher in fact. Yes, I take full credit for that. Having a poor financial situation at the moment is really getting on my nerves. That was just a regular check-up and not much to say. 
  
  However, at the other appointment, it was different. Asle wanted to talk about the depression I mentioned at the last session. So, I kept to the script as closely as possible without ad-libbing. Actually that's not true, I flubbed many of my lines. Just kidding, there is no script. I did not once say that I didn't want to transition though. I just told him that I questioned myself "Can I do this?" Ultimately, I told him, "I have to".
  
  He did point out that my depression was apparent. And to a trained psychologist, I know he isn't bullshitting me. I know I'm depressed! I'm not happy with a lot of things in my life. My body is something that I've not taken very good care of for many many years. Finding the motivation to do so is daunting at the best of times. 
  
  In light of this, he recommended that I ask my doctor for a prescription for Cirpralex. So, I am going to schedule an appointment with him next week, I hope (should have money for that by then). I'm excited to be getting help. I did ask Mr. Offerdal if this would have any negative impact on my going to the State GID clinic, and he said no. 
  
  He did say that it takes 6 months before I can see them. So, either in july or august it seems! He said he would talk with Maria and then write his report. I'm so terrified! Not because I don't think she would help me or what she would say. Oh, no, I'm just worried that he might try to find a reason to delay this. I don't think he would do that though. Or would he? Comments and thoughts?