After moving back near Oslo, I realised that I had limited supplies of two things, time and money. Well, okay, I had more than enough time. Money was and still is somewhat constrained at the moment. Somehow, I thought, there would be more social changes for me moving here and attaining the status of anonymity in the bigger city. Except, I don't live near the big city, just closer to it with better transportation alternatives. I thought I would be a lot farther along in my process of transition at this point. Sometimes, it just feels like I am ready to just throw in the towel and give in.
I will admit to anyone that I'm not the most feminine person either in looks, voice, or demeanour. I am actually quite genderqueer, because it suites me at the moment. What I wouldn't give to have a nice pair of lovely big soft breasts and also a vagina to go with it. I just don't worry about it too much though. I am still managing to get by with a penis and little breasts.
As far as after the move goes. I had to buy a fridge and that was a nightmare in itself. I waited over 2 months before canceling and ordering another. It cost a bit more and I have to make payments on it, but it's mine.
I have been losing weight and also learning how to make and mix music. My ex-partner says I have a natural talent for it, so I guess that's good. I see the GIC people again next month and hopefully, I will finally be able to satisfy their weight restriction and start on tblocker and hrt properly.
I think then I'll start to change things a bit more rapidly. I definitely do have plans to visit the UK (and Finland!) this Spring or Summer. It's mostly just a matter of sorting out the tickets and the work schedule. By the by, I don't actually work, I am a trainee and unpaid. If I do receive any form of remuneration, then it will be in the form of stock and experience.
I am really looking forward to this coming year. I want to finally start getting out and meeting and mingling with people. Been ages since I have kissed anyone. Even longer if you think of things that fall outside of that area.
Hope everyone has had a Happy Holiday and will enjoy a spectacular new year. As for myself, I'll continue to stay with my ex-partner until after new years day. It's completely platonic and we're more like sisters or very close family than anything else. My only trans friend in Norway.
If anyone ever wants to chat about something (anything really) just shoot me a message and I'll try to get back to you as soon as I am able.
Hugs to all you beautiful girls (and some guys!) and the rest of the lovely staff here at this site.
Love,
Rachel xxx
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