Need to get off my butt

• Posted by Carol Tights June 22, 2014 #  #general  #change  1,882 views
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  Sorry haven't posted any blog for a while (or much of anything). Have let myself get in a rut and sat on my not inconsiderable backside and let things just drift along.

  Have sat and done some thinking and asked myself some questions. I am still taking every oppurtunity to be Carol and with stresses at work and at home this has become - at times- my only source of happiness. My relationship with my wife has just drifted and although I still talk about my feelings and importantly Sarah's things do not feel the same. It is down to me.

  I have been making (fairly pathetic ones) excuses about not going out as Carol, worrying about ordering and buying clothes, worrying about being me at work. Worrying for the sake of worrying. Carol needs to move forward for my own well being.

  New clothes have been ordered and I am booking a makeover to get some new piccies done. Above all else I need to get myself out into the sun, so to speak. Still have respect for my wifes feelings but if I don't make positive moves now I will continue in this rut.

  For some people I am probably being a bit pathetic (they are probably right). I have to make the effort to get to Pinks in Milton Keynes for their B.N.O. and be me - be Carol. Sounds simple I know, but I am now stopping thinking about it and putting a plan together.

  My local beauty treament centre (not Wickes!) is The Belmore Centre in Aylesbury and, is literally 5 mins away. I have emailed them, explained who I am and what I am looking for (make up tips, poss. makeover ideas). A reply was received yesterday and yes they can help me, yes it can be discreetly if required. They recommended I make an appointment with there head person there. In the next month I am making an appointment, booking the day off and getting myself made up and, a leg wax.

  The above will be done with my wifes knowlege but for once, I am not going to bottle it. I have reached the point that I need to come out of my shell and be happy, be Carol.

  Thank you for listening to my rantings but it feels good to get my comments down.

  Lots and lots of love, hugs, kisses and great lippy to all

  xxxxxxxxxxx

  Carol