Growing Older/Getting Better

• Posted by Nina Rocks February 28, 2013 2,313 views
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  I’ve been thinking a lot about growing older lately, probably because I have a major birthday coming up.

   

  I used to hate the thought of being old, but as I get older I seem to be happier. I have less time left on this earth, but I seem to be enjoying my time more than I used to.

   

  One reason for this is that I am more comfortable with myself.  For example, although I am mostly in the closet, I am no longer in denial about my femininity. By accepting myself, and the totality of who I am, I have become more positive and outgoing.

   

  I also think that the loss of my parents has caused me to focus on what is important, and has taught me not to get upset by the “small stuff”.

   

  If I had a chance to go back to being in my 20’s, I would only do that if could still know what I know now. If so, I would certainly consider transitioning. I’m happy for the beautiful girls on here who are in their twenties (or thirties) who already know that they want to transition. Go for it. I’ll be the first to cheer you on!

   

  Perhaps if I had transitioned in my twenties I wouldn’t have my two amazing daughters, so I have no regrets. I also have my music, and I am working on ways to fulfill my desires to express my femininity.

   

  I’m happy, and I feel good. Sometimes I wonder “When am I going to start feeling old?”  Maybe never. Like Bob Dylan sings “I was so much older then; I’m younger than that now”.

   

  I hope it’s not too self-indulgent writing this. I’m no sage. I just wanted to express a bit about myself. I welcome thoughts and reactions from anyone out there, young or old….or, like me, maybe young AND old.

   

  Thanks for reading.

   

  Nina xx