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It doesn't always go to plan

  • Posted by Deborah Taylor December 30, 2013 #Shopping  #Public  1,649 views
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    Although I've been out and about all over the place, and even went to my work's Christmas Do, there is still plenty on my 'To-Do' list.

     

    One of these is going shopping solo.

     

    I've been shopping with friends, I've walked between places on my own, but I've never been shopping solo.

     

    Today, I planned to change that. I've spent the day in my girl jeans, bra, and butterfly top, so I'd be ready when I did go out. Originally, I'd intended to head off to Stockport early, and do my sales shopping at the Peel Centre. That didn't go to plan, what with preperations for New Year's Eve meaning my other half had to go out this morning, and I baby sat. She was later home than intended (for which she apologised) and I went out, arriving at 2pm.

     

    I was dressed. I was ready. But as I came to get out of the car, I had a 'WTF am I doing?' moment. I don't think that's happened to me before. Certainly not to that extent. The thought of standing in the returns queue at Argos haunted me, the sight of 100,000 sales shoppers fazed me. I tried telling myself nobody cares, and that I have done far more scary stuff. But I couldn't get past the 'WTF am I doing?' feeling. I know I can pass in public and I know I looked ok, as the family in the car next to me didn't look twice at me. I could have done it and I should have done it. But I didn't.

     

    I am terribly disappointed with myself. I know I could have done it on another day. Had I gone out when I originally intended, I'd have been able to do it. 

     

    I will try again. This is something I want to do. I want to be able to do things on my own, as I believe this to be important. So I will try again. Probably somewhere with less people and when I don't have to return a rucksack to Argos...

     

    When the crisis comes, all you can do is regroup and try again. And I will.

     

    By the way, incase you were wondering, this is what I was wearing:

    what I was wearing

     

    Debbie

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  • Julie Hawkwood Debbie! We've all done it! LOL I remember doing it not that long ago! Sitting in the underground car park at M&S in Manchester. I ended up getting out of the car, paying the parking ticket and going home. So I actually left the car and then scuttled...  more
  • Louise James If you look like you do and can't do it what hope for the rest of us Easy to say but just go for it, pretty sure no-one will care! xx
  • Pauline Smith Even though I go out on public transport - buses and trams - at least 2 or 3 times a week as Pauline there are still days when I think...oh shit, today it will have to be drab for the Asda run or Radcliffe market, as I just don't want those knowing...  more
  • Peter Oram I'm sure with your normal confidence that you will tick this item off your to-do list fairly shortly