Take a Picture

• Posted by Rachael Louise Blanche March 18, 2014 3,967 views
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  Strange is the world with live in.

   

  Well so where do I start? Take a picture of me and depending who I am you might get a a decent one. You see while I'm in male mode I hate my picture being taken and advoid getting in front of the lens at all costs. My mum says she only has half a dozen photos of me that are decent where I am not hiding pulling a face or doing something to mess the photo up. One of the 'decent' photos my Mum has is a wedding pic with my Ex, btw Ex has been very neatly removed. My Gf has the same problem one of her fave picture of me is one of me at a party half cut and smiling.

   

  So why is it when I'm in 'female mode' you can't stop me from having my picture taken? As some of you may have notice I do like to pose in front of a camera when my female persona comes out to play. Some whats the difference essentially I'm still the same person, so why do I go from being photophobic to photophillic (not sure thats a real word?).

   

  I suppose if you wanted to get all pyschological about it you might say that I prefer my image as female rather than male. Hence my subconsious or consious effort to not have my photo taken while I'm in in male mode. Therefore, very consious effort to have my photo taken while in 'female mode' because I prefer my projected female image.

   

  Of course this is a very simple explaniation to a complex issue. In my male mode I spend very little time in front of the mirror and you guess it in female mode I'm admiring myself in every mirror. There many more examples I could give but I'd really would be boring you. So what does this mean to me, am I suppressing an urge to transform my body in a female shape, subconiously do I want to be female full time? Or am I just a TV poser?