Me, Myself & Rachael - Part II

• Posted by Rachael Louise Blanche February 18, 2014 1,933 views
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  'Hit me with that rhythm stick.....'

   

  This may not be a 'correct' blog, but hey I'm not one for the convention of 'blogology' and as I've said before writting helps me, so here goes......

   

  Me, Myself & Rachael

  The Outsider, The Dreamer and The Transvestite

  One, Two and Three

   

  Me, One, the Outsider, the loner, the shy one, the oddball, the cynical one, the dark humoured one, the funny one, the unpredictable one, the practical one, the closed one, the watcher, the listener, the depressed one, the sad one, the poet, the kind one, the helpful one, the loyal friend, the comic, the modest one, the mind full of usless facts, the happy one, the stupid one, scared one and the brave one.

   

  Myself, Two. the Dreamer, the waster, the idiot, the actor, the rock star, the fool, the charmer, the macho one, the lazy one, the coward, the unpractical one, the let down, the failiure, the cloud chaser and the selfish one.

   

  Rachael, Three, the Transvestite, the freak, the oddball, the truthfull one, the honest one, the pretty one, the bold one, the brave one, the happy one, the don't give a damn one, the relex one, the chilled one, the party one, the diva, the sassy one, the firtly one, the open one, the smiler, the faminine one, the kind one, the constant one and the survivor.  

   

  Me, Myself and Rachael, The Outsider, The Dreamer and the Transvestite, One, Two and Three

  I am all three, Me, Myself & Rachael.

   

  Who Am I?

  This person before the mirror

  The man or the woman

  Am I both?

  One trying to be the other

  Am I a man trying to be woman

  Am I a woman trying to be a man

  Who Am I?

   

  So there you go, like so many before I've struggled with myself and the 'norms' and conventions of the society we live in, and still do in many ways. One thing I have learnt the hard way is secerts do more harm then good, and honesty can also hurt but is better in the long run. More importantly I am not a psychopath, I'm empathetic and sympathetic, kind and honest, traits which all psychopaths fail in. After a long time of struggle I have found a balance to my life it may not be perfect, but I'm happy. Yes, there things I would change. However 'ifs & buts' don't make a life. God, I could make a fortune spouting all this at some swanky retreat.

   

  I do have a habit of frustrating people who have this strange believe that I don't take myself seriously enough. If I did that I'd be in a mental health unit rocking gently back and fore.........