Coming out and related stuff

• Posted by Jet Alexis Armstrong June 10, 2013 #  1,819 views
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  Well here we are its june 2013 and time to give you a brief history of my personal coming out experience .

   

  I came out to my wife Sue on dec 24th 2011 , it was an emotional experience , i had already arranged with her for Jet to spend xmas eve with her and Sue agreed that she had to meet Jet , so after several hours of overdoing it with the make up i wobbled downstairs on jelly legs , i said Hello to Sue and handed her a rather fetching xmas present , then the tears started ! , anyway we had a lovely evening , a few drinks , a few dances and a few pictures and everything went very well , so i decided being off work till new year that i would spend the whole period dressed , that was probably my first mistake..too much too soon and although she did,nt say anything sue hated it .

   

  Come new years eve 2011 and after an emotional and tearful coming out to my Daughter i was told " get dressed or your not going to enjoy the party " i was off upstairs like i had a lightening bolt up my bum , by time i was ready all the guests had arrived , friends and family and into the middle of it breezed Jet , the reaction ? well the guys wolf whistled me and the girls made comments like " you bitch look at those legs " and  " how can you walk on those heels and can i try them on " , in short i was a success .

   

  Well come the new year and it was back to being a bloke and just dressing at home and was i ever miserable , i hated it if i was off and sue did,nt finish work till 6 pm because i could,nt dress till then , it was a trully awfull way to live and i admit i started to get suicidal , meanwhile i started coming out to my workmates and showing them photos so that they knew what to expect when i finally transitioned , which i thought would be around december of 2013 .

   

  In April of 2012 i noted in my Diary that " me and sue made love as girls and it was very romantic " , little was i to know that it would be the last time we ever made love ! , neither of us could handle it ! it just felt wrong and neither of us was comfortable , indeed i realised that i had become Asexual at that time and to this day i hav,nt had sex nor do i want to and i dont miss it a bit .

   

  Come May 2012 and i started low dose of Spiro followed by starting estrogen in the August of that year , it was around that time that things began to go wrong for me and Sue , she had until that time accepted me quite well but i think that she began to realise that it was,nt just a game but that it was serious and that she was losing her husband , well come december 24th of 2012 and thats what happened , i was ready i could,nt go on living as a male another minute and i decided to transition .

   

  At first Sue managed to handle it but did,nt like it , i gave all my male clothes away which was very painfull for me , even though i was doing the right thing and i was getting rid of him it still hurt , it hurt sue even more and she insisted on helping !.

   

  Well long story short things have been going steadily downhill since then , i had never been so happy , Sue had never been so hurt , i couldnt and would,nt go back and she got steadily more and more nasty with me , god knows ive tried but ive hurt her badly , she has lost the man that she was married to for over 30 years and i cant give him back , in recent months she has had sex with a so called best friend of mine ( now out of my life ) twice that i know of , she wont apologise and says she has nothing to apologise for as she did nothing wrong ?? , this kind of says it all and gives you an idea where our marriage and lives stand , she wont come out with me , she refuses to meet any other trans couples as  she " doesnt want to be brainwashed " and she wont invite me when she goes out with the girls and for the first time in 32 years together she is going on holiday with two girls from work basically were finished ! .

   

  I have spent the last 6 months crying nearly everyday , i have had no support and no one to turn to while my wife has repeatedly stuck the knife in and twisted it .

   

  I finally decided that enough was enough and i made the decision to harden up , happy up and pick myself up ...the Real Jet is finally back .

   

  There is no Moral or deep meaning in this story , i suppose that anyone thinking of transitioning might take it as a warning as to what can happen , its just the way its worked out for me and i decided that i wanted to share it with you...Love Jet Alexis xxxxxxx