Born That Way

• Posted by Deleted Member September 3, 2011 #self exploration  866 views
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  If in fact being transgender is a biological trait as some purport to be the case -- like having blue eyes or blond hair --does that relieve us of this heavy load?

  
  

  What if it came to light that you really weren’t a woman in spirit? That none of this transgender life is about “being” a woman in a man’s body, but rather just thinking you were?

   

  And what if that thought (of being and feeling female) was biologically “hard wired” into your brain? How would that make you feel?  Are you happy that this can no longer be considered an action of choice, or does it make you sad knowing that “being wired biologically” means it is likely something you will never be able to change?

   

  Most of us have spent our entire lives wondering, “What’s wrong with me?” And then after decades of purge and repeat behavior, mixing shame, guilt and the need to search our soul for the truth of these internal feelings of self identity, some of us have slowly learned to accept in ourselves that which society often mocks, or worse, condemns.

   

  If in fact being transgender is a biological trait, like having blue eyes or blond hair, does that relieve us of this heavy load?

   

  Transsexuals, prior to GRS, have often described themselves as woman trapped in the body of a man. And although I feel the same way -- and used that explanation as the best analogy to explain what being transgender felt like -- I still could never reconcile what that really meant beyond theory in my own mind.

   

  When we say, “I am a woman,” are we referring to the current essence of our soul? Or perhaps we have the memories from a previous female life existence?  Or is our (societies) notion of life and existence simply wrong, and gender expression merely another form of experience as I suggest in “And They Burned Witches Too!” 

   

  Abstract thoughts like these fascinate me, and I actively participate in “what if” scenarios all the time. But beyond the rhetoric of the conversation, what does any of it mean in the practical sense?