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The World...according to Zola de Cwtchi 29Aug11

  • Posted by Deleted Member August 29, 2011 #  782 views
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    The Real Me......

     

    So...here i am...lying on my bed. It's morning...and im slowly deconstructing from Girlie mode back to what i call...Daddymode.

     

    I find it really hard sometimes.

     

    Let me explain 'Daddymode'...Daddymode is when i have my kids...two lovely sons who i adore, their Mom and i split quite a few years ago, it was amicable and i adore her too, only in the sense that she is the Mother to my children and a bloody good one too. We share the kids on a fortnighty rota, they seem to be happy with it...it works

     

    So...it's Daddymode time later today...i am happy, looking forward to seeing them.

     

    But i find it hard to change back sometimes.

     

    I love both genders of my being...although i do feel i am able to express myself fully whilst Femme.

    Im not running away from anything in my Male life...it's just sooo boring!!

     

    Girls definately have more fun...and you dont neccessarily have to be blonde either

     

    I look at Men...and their clothes...boring!!

     

    Except for the vintage stuff...but then, thats still dressing up!!

     

    I look at Girls...Wowshoes..dresses...make up...hair...handbags !! Yesssssssssss

     

    I presume that you, the reader, will understand exactly what i saying?

     

    When Angel and i shop...we are always in the ladies section...and i buy ladies jeans, underwear as normal wear now...in an attempt to quell the girl inside. It's a considered attempt to fuse the two genders together...and i think being a more girie boy is the only way from now on.

     

    And it does feels like im getting closer to being the real me...no time now for being anything else!!

     

    Comments most welcome...serious or funny...as they come

     

    Kisses

     

    Zola x

     

    Post Script...this isnt a cry for help, although i do get confused and down sometimes, usually followed by a night on the town...and then im ok again...must be the Vodka!!

     

     

3 comments
  • Catrin Williams and Pauline Smith like this
  • Pauline Smith Any of us who are dads recognize what you describe, even if our own circumstances may be slightly different. Both parts of us are there all the time, aren't they? hugs P xxx
  • Deleted Member Zola, try buying a 28 inch waist pair of jeans, nigh on impossible, had to buy size 8-10 in ladies jeans cos they used to fit better, around my waist and in the leg. And for sitting around the house, i like wearing casual shirts, checked ones preferably,...  more
  • rebecca ramone this rings some bells with me though i dont know why really 1 im not a parent 2 i dont have a routine for bieng dressed in either gender as there is only rebecca really and the way i feel or what i do dosnt change depending on what im wearing. as for the...  more