Yes I am a woman but only different

• Posted by Deleted Member February 8, 2013 1,398 views
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  I received this lovely message today, I am always getting emails from guys declaring there love and the usual sexual undertones that come with it. But every now and then I get a really nice one. I thought I would share it with you

   

  
  Hi Stephanie,
  First I think you are beautiful, I think you have great legs and are very sexy. I also think you to be a beautiful person inside as well. I understand your conflict about the hormone therapy as well, you are very considerate to think how hard it would be for an employer to have you work two years as a woman so you can get the okay. Too bad, because the way you write I believe you are a woman. I have had similar feeling my whole life and never been brave enough to act on them as my family and wife would not understand. I was the last of 4 sons and most of my life I was told I was supposed to be a girl... strange huh? The other strange thing here..... and not to creep you out... I find you very attractive and I am straight as well not gay... so explain that one.... I am only attracted to women, I'm attracted to you so...

   

  
  Anyway I enjoy your photos as well as your writings. Good luck beautiful in the future,

   

  
  DJ

   

  
  I think all us Trans have our struggles and internal turmoils throughout are lives, trying to understand why we feel as we do. I believe once you accept the real you, you can move forward. Even then you have to think of the repercussions coming out causes should you take that course of action. If you are married its even more pragmatical. Your wife will in most cases be angry, heartbroken that the marriage has been a lie and then the hate. If I had been honest with myself and realised what I was from an earlier age I would have told my partner from the very beginning. But I really had no idea that 20 years later Stephanie would be such a big part of my life, we had no internet back then so I was literally in the dark. It has been my biggest regret hurting my partner keeping it a secret all those years, bottling up my feelings and being in a state of denial. The saddest thing was that I really loved my wife she was my best friend. Sadly she was unable to come to terms and accept me for who I am, My love for her has died due to her hate. I still care for her and I don't hate her for what she has also done to me since. For the most part I am happier than I have been for many years, I have wonderful friends here and in the real world more so than before I came out. I have the love of my family and I thank god that I have two wonderful sons who don't judge me and still love there dad. What next for Stephanie, well there is no turning back, I still have a long way to go but I feel alive and feel I can accomplish anything set before me. a far cry from my male persona who was scared to try anything new and had virtually no friends. It's heart warming that people see me as a woman, for that is what i am but only different.