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I don’t know any more

  • Posted by Deleted Member November 26, 2012 1,044 views
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    How do I feel at this moment is lost very lost I look in the mirror and don’t like what I see

    I don’t see Amy anymore just a bloke trying to be something I’m not I feel false  

    I know I am the same person but I just can’t stop feeling like this

    My eyes where opened by what I had read somewhere and now I don’t like my self 

    At this moment in time that’s why I deleted most of my albums I feel that I can’t walk the fine line

    Between drab and trans I want to find me again be the girl who I was a t-girl who was just there for the fun and her friends I feel I have let a lot of people down

    I had a dream of being full time I know that’s just a dream but now the dream has flown it’s gone

    I get jealous when I see a real girl I want to look like that when im working my mind is occupied so I can cope that’s why I work as much as I can

    I don’t know how to tell anyone how I feel it’s hard to put into words I need to find myself again

    One day I may just do that 

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  • Deleted Member Oi squiffy nowt wrong with being a tranny, when are you coming to us again.
  • Deleted Member I've never met you Amy, but I can tell a fraud a Mile off, and life just throws you in shitty situations at times. Most of the time, when I 'm stuck as a guy, I feel horrible, I denied this for too long, got my self depressed drank and eat nothing but...  more
  • Chloe Morgan So sorry to hear your feeling so down Amy,i think if were honest we all have these dark unhappy periods of time we go thru from time to time,and all we can hope for is that we get thru the lows as quickly as we can,i really hope we all see the ever...  more
  • Deleted Member Hey hun, dont be so hard on yourself. life is crap at times and you cant let it get you down. if you do youve lost and you will never be who you truly are, be bigger stronger and you will be the you you should be. I truly hope you get through this bad patch. xx