Little Steps Part Two

• Posted by Deleted Member October 28, 2012 #coming out  #Family  #full time  #enjoying life  748 views
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  Last night went really well. New dress worked and my make up was not as bad as it seemed.

   

  I have to admit that I was a bag of nerves before my guests turned up, my partner’s sister has met Debbie once before but her partner had not…  I have only met him once in drab before, and I think my first words last night were, ‘well I guess I look a bit different now!’

   

  Anyway my fears were totally put to sleep after a glass of wine or two!!!

   

  The family tend to see me as nothing really out of the ordinary, and that is just amazing.  I love them all.

   

  I have lost count of the number of times that I have been out, I guess I was twenty or so the first time and since then it has been a steady journey to get where I am.

   

  Twice in my life I have gone full time and lived and worked in a feminine role, but both times it did not work.  The reason for that was that I was just not ready, and I was a total mess inside, terrified that I would get hassles!!!  I did a few times but alas, that kinda goes with the territory.

   

  However, being out to the family, 100% no holds barred is a feeling that has me walking on air.

   

  As the Beatles said, ‘sitting on a sofa with a sister or two’ – and just ‘being normal’ is something that I really never did think would happen to me.

   

  I don’t like to lie and keep things hidden, which maybe or maybe not the right thing to do I suppose it is up to the individual, but now I know that I am totally accepted and that is the best feeling a person can have.

   

  Not at all sure if I will be classed as male, or female at the next family party when I show up in drab, I do know that I will be expected to help out with the washing up!!!!

   

  On the two occasions my partner’s sister has seen the real me, she has squeaked with delight at my shoes, she always tries them on, I don’t think you get more acceptance that that!!!!

   

  So looking to the future, well I have a few ideas about how my life will do and the live of those that I share it with.

   

  Life is sweet, and I really would urge anyone in a similar situation to me to try and get people on side who will support you and talk.

   

  Lastly, I know now that at last I will get some Christmas presents that I actually want!!!!!

   

   

  TBC