Beginning Anew

• Posted by Michaela Lynn January 16, 2016 #Beginning  1,305 views
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  Hello world,this is my first blog here.i am michaela.or kaylynn.for as far back as I can remember I recall questioning my role in the world.dont get me wrong,I am the flower child of my family so I wasn't questioning me as much as my body vs my mind.
  Never thought about it,but very young I was searching for the woman inside,at first this started with trying on clothes,the usual cross dress and such.but that was occasional as I lived a life where it was hard to experiment and find.by the time I was 18 I was still questioning this and just thinking it was a deviation of sort.not even noticing my appearance at times was so feminine that in public sometimes a person would say excuse me miss,I knew I was different at this point and looked deeper.
  Through my 20s and 30s this continued but grew stronger,it wasn't clear until some years back when I dressed not for the sexual excitement,but because it just made me feel better somehow.I began to take more time with this and in recent years realized all that I assumed years previous.I am a woman,I live 60 percent or more of my life as a woman and find the arousal of clothing secondary to the deep femininity that I have pounding inside of me.
  So I am a woman ...who knew.and I thought I might just be a cross dresser ..either way wonderful forms of expressing femininity.i am currently working on make up with a girlfriend of mine and different forms of expression and hormone options.this is what feels normal and I am finally one person.complete.my pics have been play but I'm growing my hair naturally long and plan to style...these things don't happen overnight .well they kinda do...I went from toying and questioning a couple years ago to fully embracing my inner woman and it did just seem to all come together quickly and strongly.I have sought guidance with this ..but the more I searched,the more I found me.No more inner fight,no more questions.just a woman that's been trying to break free for years ..and this girl is on fire