Nervous? You will be.......

• Posted by Julie Hawkwood March 10, 2012 2,278 views
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  ((Stay with me on this! There is a tranny point... at some stage!!!))

   

  I have a job that involves training people. Twenty years ago when I started my career, talking in public was my biggest fear. Even talking to a small group would mean weeks of sleepless nights, days of preparation and nerves. Anything, and I mean anything, would be prefarable to the hell of public speaking. I remember once in an interview with the famous opera singer, Pavarotti. He was asked if he ever suffered with nerves, he answered that it was a hell for him and that 'every night is like the first night'. I was reminded of this last week when a radio interviewer ask the actress Pauline Quirk the same question in regard to her current stage work. Yes, she replied and worse, that she had spent all her 

  acting career, over 40 years being petrified.... and still she worked as an actress!

   

  Now twenty years later, I do training and lecturing for a living. I love it and enjoy it. I adore working with an audience and trying to fire peoples energy and imagination. The bigger the venue and the more people the better.

   

  What changed this terrified youngster into a confident public speaker? I think it was doing it constantly. The more I did it the easier it was. Initially I would do it then never do it for months, even years, so the nerves never went or even got worse. Then I did it more and more. My mind never went blank or if it 

  wavered then I survived. My trousers never fell down, I never fainted and the ground never swallowed me up. I now love it, I have confidence and it helps in so many ways in my life.

   

  So what's all this got to do with a blog on Transtastic? Well, I'm sure many of you (me included) get nervous about going out dressed. I certainly do, and it's like the youngster I was and I really don't do it often enough to be so relaxed. Sure, I go out in Manchester a lot and stay in straight hotels. But I go to accepting places in the Village and usually at night. Going out in the day and into everyday life is still a trauma.

   

  I am sure many of you have been the same and for the transexual there is no other way. I wonder how you coped, does it get easier, does it get delightful, does it finally set you free? HOW do you get through the nerves???

   

  Jules xxxxxx