When the trans wheels come off....

• Posted by Julie Hawkwood September 24, 2011 2,477 views
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  Blog When the trans wheels come off!  Last month, my sisters in the Manchester Concord buried one of their own - a tgirl who had taken her own life. Some websites in the USA put transexual suicide rates as high as 50 percent, although this is disputed. I met an old tranny friend a few weeks ago. It might be pushing ten years since we hung around the Manchester Village as much as we could, both Wednesday and Saturday Nights. She was always fun and we lived to dance the night away. When we met, she was just getting over a nervous breakdown after her work found out about her cross dressing and her life fell apart. It can be a scary world for a tranny. I am sure you know many other sad stories. On a brighter note, living in Manchester, I have had the privelige to accompany many new girls on their first steps out. It's an amazing transformation from quivering nervous wreck to the confident accepted tranny in our safe village. It's also helped a lot of people who can find a way to deal with their special ability to cross gender boundaries. It is easy to get carried away too. It's such a rush, a roller coaster ride getting out dressed that you want to do it again and again, go anywhere in a frock sometimes forgetting to stay safe. In the old days, we used to call it the 'tranny madness'. Moderation in all things, even moderation they say. It's also easy to carry the 'tranny madness' too far: to tell everyone (friends, family, work) even if they don't need to know. To shove it down their throats. It's easy to be selfish too, cross dressing can appear very focussed on the self and that's the nature of the beast. I have suffered many of these things in my life - the highs and the very dark lows. I've also seen far worse from other trannies and plenty of heartbreaking stories. Which brings me to the point of this blog. I will say, in chat and in forums, the cold light of reality as it is. It will sound mean and heartless. It will sound nasty but its not meant like that. Sometime my Lancashire is showing, where we call a spade a spade. Sometimes it sounds nasty but it's plain speaking. I'm all for going out, fighting our cause and pushing the boundaries. If you know me, you'll know that's what I do! BUT I will always advise CAUTION!!! Many people are not accepting. Many people would love to hurt us physically. Many people will think we are perverts. What we do IS different to the straight-laced world out there.  So when I say to you, stop and think, keep you heels on the ground, try not to be selfish..... In my best Lancashire, I make this plea: 'Please don't bloody well tek offence, yer daft cow!'. I am your sister and biggest fan always.  Jules xxxxxxx